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MY LIFE IS s**t AND I AM f*****g PISS ABOUT

I am not internalizing s**t anymore, call me as*hole, I don't even care, everyone around me f*****g sucks

*hugs* You're not an as*hole. You deserve to feel better and I hope you do soon.

My mom is going to lecture me on drugs when she is downing pain meds everyday

Okay so what if she has pain, I have anxiety and that problem hasn't gone away so double stranded much?

Maybe I can go and break a leg so I can abuse drugs too, telling me I ain't doing s**t sitting in front of her PC all day, she hasn't done s**t her whole, talking about being on pain meds since 18, okay well f**k, bragging are we? man f**k her opinion.

I have been on weed since 18 so there

Last edited by dcj123 on 06 Feb 2017, 5:40 pm, edited 3 times in total.

Thanks

It'll get better cause I am going make it better

I forgive you, forget you, the end

I hate manipulation

Just say f**k me to my face please

I deal with it better

Oh wait... My dad did say f**k you to my face... ah well... Just stop being a controlling dick and get the f**k out of my life, you are one to judge coming from the bottom of humanity yourself

Bleed b***h bleed!!

I got a candle
And I've got a spoon
I live in a hallway with no doors and no rooms
And under a window sill
They all were found
A touch of concrete within the doorway
Without a sound

Someone save me if you will
And take away all these pills
And please just save me, if you can
From my blasphemy in my wasteland

How did I get here
And what went wrong
Couldn't handle forgiveness
Now I'm far beyond gone
And I can hardly remember
The look of my own eyes
How could I love this,
My life so dishonest
It made me compromise

Someone save me if you will
And take away all these pills
And please just save me, if you can
From my blasphemy in my wasteland

Jump in the water
Jump in with me
Jump on the altar
Lay down with me
My hardest question
To answer is why
Why

Someone save me if you will
And take away all these pills
And please just save me, if you can
From my blasphemy in my wasteland

Someone save me [Repeat: x2]
Somebody save me [Repeat: x2]
Please don't erase me

Holy f**k my thoughts are 90 mph

From my f*****g dad to f*****g drug use to f*****g abuse to f****d up crimes committed against me to f****d crimes I have committed against others

Judge me but I am gonna down some f*****g pills and go to sleep

your parents not behaving in an adult way here but stuck in the way that obviously didn't work,
don't eat that negatif feed,
your weak spot to let their abuse in, emotionally, will keep them coming and everyone's blocked that way

they won't or can't stop this now
so the only way is not to let it get you the way it does

and when you take control, of you,
they are out of control

it might take some time to figure it out, but it must

repetition, they cling on something, a selfcontinuing failure,
you believe it, and next it has become a goal, a shared cache for their selfimagined failure
you fill their projection
but you don't want to, so you feel evil

don't think it's rare, there's many ways to play out selfpromoted failure,
you can't change them

Well tolerance is wonderful when you don't have it

I am feeling like I am on pills because I took pills lol

I am going to bed but what you said made sense, I am way beyond my usual so I'll read it tomorrow but it kinda sounds like its along the lines of not showing weakness to a bully. Which funny cause I think they might be and whats funny is they screw me every chance over and over again while preaching about being in my best interest.

They say things in anger and so have I but they mean what they say, they mean what they say in anger. Yeah I have told my dad to f**k off before but they were empty words with no meaning. Their words are much more painful then being told to f**k off and now, now I am being told to f**k off so yeah their true colors are showing as loving parents and its f****d because they both came from broken homes and they are completely isolated. They have no friends and they are completely alone now that their children have left them. I feel bad in a way but there is nothing I can do and remain sane.

Also, I gotta go, I am high, goodnight.

Well even medicated a good bit, I am restless, I feel like I want to hurt myself really, not kill myself, just hurt myself, I went from 90 mph thoughts to about 70 mph and its almost morning

Here is good song at least,



Two packs of cigarettes a day
The strongest whiskey
Kentucky can make
That's a recipe to put a vagabond
On his hands and knees
I watched it all up close,
I knew him more than most
I saw a side of him he never showed
Full of sympathy for a world that
Wouldn't let him be

That's the man he was,
Have you heard enough?

[Chorus]
What a shame, what a shame,
To judge a life that you can't change
The choir sings, the church bells ring
So, won't you give this man his wings?
What a shame to have to beg you to
See we're not all the same
What a shame

There's a hard life for every silver spoon
There's a touch of grey for every shade
Of blue
That's the way that I see life
If there was nothing wrong,
Then there'd be nothing right
And for this working man they say could
Barely stand
There's gotta be a better place to land
Some kind of remedy for a world that
Wouldn't let him be

That's the man he was,
Have you heard enough?

[Chorus]
What a shame, what a shame,
To judge a life that you can't change
The choir sings, the church bells ring
So, won't you give this man his wings?
What a shame to have to beg you to
See we're not all the same
What a shame

God forgive the hands that laid you down
They never knew how, but your broken
Heart can break the sound
And change the season
Now the leaves are falling faster,
Happily ever after
You gave me hope through your endeavors
And now you will live forever

[Chorus]
What a shame, what a shame,
To judge a life that you can't change
The choir sings, the church bells ring
So, won't you give this man his wings?
What a shame to have to beg you to
See we're not all the same
What a shame, what a shame
'Cause we're not all the same
What a shame, what a shame
'Cause we're not all the same

Screw it to hell, I am not going to bed and I am to be high all day