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16 Nov 2009, 1:10 pm
If silence and dodging him is your choice of strategy for the time being, I'm confident you're the one best able to decide what you can do in the circumstances you've been trapped in. I'm wishing you luck at becoming really good at dodging the guy.
He can keep trying but you will never, ever, ever give in and the idiot will eventually realize he dosen't have a chance in hell. Unless he wants to suffer trying to accomplish something impossible, so sucks for him. But I seriously want to fly over there and give him what he deserves.
17 Nov 2009, 12:45 am
It's the morning. I'll see if i can push myself out of the door in an hour.
Last night the sleep didn't come easy. I had a lot of scary thoughts about today. I was kinda half-sleeping.
I had a disturbing dream. In that dream i was in my old home(witch i hate). I was on the street near my old house and i was riding with my old bike. I was coming home from somewhere. But near the house on the road there were two dumb twin brothers who were watching me with their eyes. They were grinning and like "come with us, you have a nice body". I ran home. I got sick feelings. At home i took my knife and stole my grandfathers hunting rifle. I was ready to take them down. .. from here the dream was cut off by phone alarm.
Damn i want to cry, because i feel fu**ed up, but the tears wont come even if i feel quite so. I have no appetite. Food makes me sick. I eat very little.
I am having a sick thought about causing blood loss to myself. Cut and let the blood flow. But i must not do this, even if i want to. I do not want to die, but then again what's here to live for.
F***CCCKKKKK i hate everything right now!! !! I feel like i really can not go to school anymore. i am becoming so weak. Can't even push myself on the bus anymore.
I am afraid i am falling into depression. I'd like to laugh at my sorry a** face. I hate myself for being such a weak bit**. It really feels like no one can help me anymore, because it would not give any power anymore. Because i can not help myself anymore!
Yes you found out. I am a weak loser. Dead end as always. 
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17 Nov 2009, 1:32 am
Right now you're blue, close to purple. I advise that you get mad, not at yourself not at anyone, just vent (hit something, laugh at it, listen to some really loud metal, just don't keep s**t inside to much, specially the bad kind. Either you let it out or you learn to laugh at it). It is your emotional anger and the inability to not be able to let it out that is draining your power and making you depressed and weak.
I know what stage your in right now and nostalgia is creeping up on me like a long forgotten assassin.
When I was spiraling down I just said "f**k it..." I laughed at it and I turned my boiling anger and sadness into a driving force to get me through the hard times.
Go shake hands with your assassin before he back stabs you and you'll stagnate completely.
I know what type of person you are, a real nice and caring individual with a lot of inverted emotion, it's dangerous for one self if you cannot surf such a huge emotional tide.
Welcome to life, it gets better.
When you get older you'll just laugh at the bagatelle from 2009. 
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdoFvp4wHtc&feature=PlayList&p=4854DE423F8721C2&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=28[/youtube]
Some very powerful and dangerous demon must have made this tune,.... can't... stop....listening! *repeat*
There is dark magic involved here!
Tory_canuck
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17 Nov 2009, 2:09 am
17 Nov 2009, 5:58 am
Also write down how you feel and how it is affecting you emotionally and health wise.
This will all help down the road should you have to resort to legal means.You will then have evidence to pursue the matter.
Also...if he does harass you anymore, you are legally entitled to defend yourself..or at least thats the case here in Canada.If you have to hit him, hit him, if you have throw him on the ground and give him a good wailing, do so.
When in a situation...do not hurt or eliminate yourself...Eliminate or neutralize the threat or cause of your strife.
By recording everything you can also sue your school in the future. There is legal aid options for those who can't afford to retain a lawyer on their own.I also think Europe might also have duty counsel available in the courts as they do here in Canada.
I am from Estonia
Tory_canuck
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17 Nov 2009, 6:27 am
18 Nov 2009, 5:50 am
Your school can be found guilty of the below-noted
Thanks anyway. I can wander around some of our country's "law" sites if the need arises. Thanks again.
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Yesterday morning i received an e-mail message from my teacher/form master. She asked if something was wrong because she had not seen me at school for some days.(She knows about this sexual harassment stuff).
I replied her a message, something like "My mental health has dropped low and it feels safest to be where i am. I have lost interest in school and can't find the will to drag myself anywhere." In the end i wrote that "i apologize for such a depressing reply, but that's the way it is."
She hasn't replied since. I am hoping that she will. If she won't then i will get even more depressed because that would be my own school teacher/ form master who doesn't give a sh*t.
She is and seems to be a good teacher but i do not get why she ignores my trouble. "if" she doesn't ignore it then she really is "slow".
18 Nov 2009, 12:04 pm
18 Nov 2009, 12:36 pm
Every time you speak to someone at your school, bring it up explicitly, and use the rule of: "Tell them what you're going to tell them, then tell them, then tell them what you told them." Something like:
"I haven't been coming to school because this boy's behavior has me too terrified to function. At home I make plans for how to avoid him -- which buses to take, how to move around the building -- anything to give him fewer chances at me. But when I'm ready for school and it's time to catch the bus, I simply can't move from the terror of what's been happening."
That not only states that the harassment is the problem, it states it three times. Try to do that every single time.
Well yes, i suppose i could do that. But i need to collect some courage, because i am too afraid. I am afraid that she might get angry because i do not go to school and i was to be the one who needed to talk to the harassing guy. I hate criticism against myself when i am sure i am right, it makes me burst into painful tears. Don't know why. I guess i have some "disorders".
I should also ask her if they have talked to that guy. If they haven't..
I should make some critic sense inside myself. Can't stay as a loser forever. I must make myself believe that no one is coming to shout at, yell at or humiliate me.
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