I'm dead.

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I used to feel that way. I even tried to kill myself by overdosing myself with prescription drugs. Thankfully it didn't kill me. I felt like I had nothing going for me. I had no talents, I have a disgusting body, and I felt like I was simply drifting. I had also failed at everything I had ever tried at that point.

To be honest, I still feel like a dead man walking sometimes. I'll give myself a good cry if I need it. But I'll force myself to simply live. I have no friends, I still have no special talents. I have nothing but my body, my mind and my family. And I'm happy. Truly, honestly happy.

I guess I'm trying to say, and probably failing to help you, if you have anything, anything at all, even things you consider nothing, you have a reason to live.

I'd offer myself to you as a friend, but people tend to dislike when people get personal. :l But that's my advice.

How can we help him? How can you help someone who has no regard for life? You can't. I used to be just like you. Misery loves company. I used to hate myself, life and everyone around me 24/7 just like you. I lived in a world of hatred and loneliness. No one can help you right now. But you will get to a point in your life where you will realize you want to actually do something and not just sit around and be miserable and depressed. I didn't reach that point personally until a few months ago. I used to live on the edge of life and death, I would look at my gun and contemplate suicide all the time. I've come close several times but I never found the courage to do it. And I too have been in a psych hospital. Its never easy but your only what? 16? You will see things differently one day as you mature and we all have choices regarding wether or not we want to learn, grow and mature and do something about our problems. We can also choose to live in a world of misery and self hate, but if you take that road you will have no one to blame for your shortcomings in life but YOURSELF. The change starts within. Choices choices...

Doubt it. Can't change.

You want to know why I have Molly as my face here? For some reason, I feel a connection with her. Everywhere I go, it seems like she's following me; she's always in my thoughts. I've never seen an entity so beautifully constructed. She's a goddess. However, I'm s**t compared to her. I hear her mocking me, deconstructing my soul.

She wouldn't do that. That's not who she is. :\ You just need to get some self esteem.

Not possible.

I think I called it in my first post, several other posters have spoken similarly as well. Its not likely things would change now but you will likely hit a point, whether three, five, ten years from now where you won't be able to tolerate it anymore and it'll click that the only available direction to go is up.

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Only because you say it isn't.

Agreed.

I can't just develop self-esteem with the snap of a finger! Get f*****g real.

Obviously, you're a nihilist.

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On Abilify now. Not doing any good.

Why is my heart still beating?

Because regardless if you want to die, the rest of you still has hope.

Jonsi, f**k off.

Not everyone is religious so while this kind of advice might be helpful for a christian, it is probably not very helpful for non-religious people.

Because you have not died yet...I know how it is not being able to recover from depression, I've had to accept it as an ongoing part of my life as much as I hate it. I really don't have much to live for, I mean I know a lot of my family would be sad if I killed myself but that is not really something that sustains my life. Right now something that sort of keeps me going is my curiosity about how long my sanity will last. There are some things I enjoy that take my mind off of things like that for a bit but I have pretty much accepted that things aren't nessisarly going to get better. This probably is not very helpful or anything.