MR20 wrote:
John_Browning wrote:
Medicine isn't all bad and a "mental home" is similar to what I was suggesting, but I was mainly suggesting one that would let you have more space. There are some out there like that. The state would probably pick up the tab.
I've been to mental homes in my teens, they were no help at all. I was arguably bullied worse in there by people than I was on the outside. Of course, the "staff" turned a blind eye to it all. those places did nothing to help me, they are nothing more than glorified babysitter centers for people like me.
It's not like you are dong anything to improve your life now and you are headed for living under a freeway overpass someday at the rate you are going
How can I improve how my face looks? How can I improve my motor skills and make myself process info faster? I can't. You have to be born with those features. It's not my fault I'm this way. I've been a bum my whole life up to this point, I don't see it changing in the future so you're right.
so you might as well look into some extra assistance. If they helped you get a job to supplement your SSI
I don't do well around a bunch of people in public places. This goes back to middle school. My palms, armpits, and feet start to sweat, and then I get really paranoid that people are laughing at or talking about me. It makes it hard to concentrate on work. An online job maybe.
they could also help you find a GF.
They're no way anyone wants to be friends with me let alone a GF. Unless I have something they want to use, in which they be nice to me until my stuff is gone or stolen (more than likely one of my fake friends took it) It has happened countless times in the past. It took me while to realize that people (women included) like to prey on people like me and that's made it very hard from me to trust anyone outside of my immediate family
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I have been following your threads for a while, and I am noticing a pattern. You seem to fit the profile of someone who has major depression...I know this because I have experienced it myself. You feel hopeless, feel like nothing can change for you, and want people to agree that you are not going to go anywhere. But if people agree, that is NOT going to help you.
A solution? You need to change your daily living habits whether you like it or not. You keep saying you need your games...but which is more important to you right now, your games or your personal hygiene? Obviously the games aren't working at making you happy, and if they were, you wouldn't have started this post, or made multiple posts about this same topic. You need to spend some money...even if you have to give some of your games up or sell them, or only buy one game a month...onto fixing your bathroom and getting clean.
You try to turn things around when people respond to you, saying that because something happened in the past, good things will never happen to you (i.e. people bullied you so you will never have a chance at fitting in, group homes hated you in the past so they will always hate you, etc.) . That is called all or nothing thinking, and it is your biggest obstacle because it will ruin opportunities for you rather than create them.
You need to look up some Cogitive Behavioural Therapy exercises and apply them to your own behaviour. They are available on the internet for free.
This is something you need to do for yourself. We can only give suggestions, but in the end, you need to put in some effort yourself.
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Given a “tentative” diagnosis as a child as I needed services at school for what was later correctly discovered to be a major anxiety disorder.
This misdiagnosis caused me significant stress, which lessened upon finding out the truth about myself from my current and past long-term therapists - that I am an anxious and highly sensitive person but do not have an autism spectrum disorder.
My diagnoses - social anxiety disorder and obsessive-compulsive disorder.
I’m no longer involved with the ASD world.
01 Jul 2011, 9:06 pm
