Starbuline wrote:
Thanks everyone.
But now I feel like a dumbass. He was at the store but he didn't tell me he was leaving because he thought I was angry with him. And I almost hurt myself because I was being stupid.
I feel for you. I go through this constantly, in person and online. When that happens, just try to not catastrophize it and do your best to distract yourself until you can get a chance to explain everything to the person. As you just experienced, half the time they have no idea how upset we are about something we said or did. They're too busy trying to figure out what they did to piss
us off.
Right now I feel like crap because I was rude to a cashier at Barnes & Noble. I was buying my mom the Tony Attwood book for her birthday, and I could feel the cashier staring at me. I could tell she wanted to say something, but I just kept looking down. Finally she says in this extreme-NT voice, that kind of singsong, tell-me-your-troubles type of Oprah-viewer voice, "did you see that movie Mozart & the Whale?" I said, "uh, yeah...I star in it." She just stood there holding my stuff, staring at me with her mouth open. And I finally said "yeah, it was an ok movie. They did ok with it, I guess." She said, "yeah, it was ok..." and I grabbed my bag from her and walked out. Now I feel really bad for being so rude. But I hate when that type of person asks me something like that, because I could tell she was tiptoeing around me and trying to be "sensitive." That infuriates me! An older cashier at the same store once saw me buying an Asperger book and said "oh, the disease du jour! What makes you think you have this?" I just cackled and said "my doctor!" We ended up having a good talk about it.
So I want to stop being so nasty to clueless but well-meaning NTs. That girl seemed to maybe know someone with AS, or at least be interested in the topic. So I missed a chance to maybe clue her in, and instead I actually blew up at her for her "sensitivity". Arrrghhh.