Space Case.
The best way to kill yourself is not to.
I think Anna 54 said most of what I have to say, so I won't repeat it. We're all friends here, that's why we're here in the first place.
We just went through one of our members killing herself. It tore up a lot of people here and in her family. There are always ways to deal with something short of killing yourself.
If you're better, fine. If not, we're all still here.
Also, check your meds. Some of them (I don't know what you're taking or if) warn of suicidal tendencies. I take a couple of meds like that. They don't effect me that way, but my doctor was very careful getting me into them. And she gave me a bunch of very stern warnings about what to do if they started to effect me that way.
I have other thoughts on the subject, but if you're really okay, then they'll keep.
She'll hate me for saying this, but pm Anna. She's pretty sharp, and she's pretty young, and she sometimes says some very sensible things.
btdt