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i hate this f*****g place.

oooooooooo the flock

latest to the show wants to be the moral-compass and judge

I don't hate my life but i'M scared of living after my parents die. I wish i could just die with them, all of us at the same time without pain.

There's no suicidal ideation like visiting the parents suicidal ideation.

every time paul ryan opens his
mouth or moves a muscle he does something utterly stupid. he should be in a straitjacket.

Tch! Healthy people feel bad about bad things they've done.

Ok this is a petty one, but I can't find the "Things that Irrationally Annoys Us" topic anywhere because the search function is broken again -
I am staying with someone who has this habit of CONSTANTLY commentating on, or announcing, everything I do as if it's some big deal, or completely out of line. And this is normal stuff. Like this morning early, I got up to piss and wandered into the kitchen to get just a sip of milk (it's MY milk, I can drink it out of the bottle if I want to) and this person was getting ready to leave, and announces, very loudly, "OH HO! Here it comes, here comes the big swig of milk!"
I literally turned around and said "Oh shut up."
Because that's what this person needs to do. Mind their own effing business, stop watching every move I make and announcing it as if I shouldn't be doing it.
It's not just the milk. I was cooking vegetables the other day (vegetables) and this person comes in, points at me with this shocked expression, and says "OH HO! Cooking up a storm are we, cooking up a storm now?!"
No, a***hole. I'm stirfrying vegetables. This is not a phenomena worthy of herald. I should be allowed to cook vegetables left to my own devices without this fanfare, pointing out everything I'm doing as if it's some crazy, out-there action.
I can't even watch a movie without the commentary - this person will come in and say "what are you watching? What's this now? Oh it's [whatever]! Well."
Leave me alone! It makes me insanely self-conscious, because someone is literally watching everything I do, and I know for a fact that many of my movements also get written down. I'm being spied on.
In a few days I'm moving out for a month on a house-sitting gig, so will be AWAY from these freaks for a time, and then I'm looking at securing a broken down old caravan on a property (there is still a house with people I know in it on the property, so it's not total independence of course, but it might be at least SOME more privacy than this fishbowl shite) after that so I don't have to return. I can't stand it.
/ petty rant.
PS : And yes, WP is getting so sh***y recently that I have been taking time off it in two week blocks - no reading, no commenting, no going near it for those two weeks and then checking back in (like now) to see if there has been improvement.

I just got some information. I also learned that I missed it completely several months ago. Also, it seems that was my fault.

People aren't paying attention when I tell them how dumb I am, or when I tell them how I am dumb.

It's messed up when people's statements parse only as deliberate falsehoods or deliberately provocative. Are simple, declarative sentences so damn difficult?

I literally can't not bring myself to look down from high heights, the desire to kill myself is so great and the impulse so high that if I did, I can't say with honestly that I would not immediately jump.

I have ruined my life completely and I want to die.

Personally I would like to do it in patriotic blaze of glory against some evil dudes for the lulz

But realistically, I'll probably just implode.

I think I did.

Felt oddly satisfying...

But while I am having a heart to heart the entire world and unfortunately my delusions that will never go away, so did being raped as a child.

I am gonna do it and everyone knows it because my delusions are f****d... and my delusions know they are f****d too which is also why I am gonna do it and everyone knows it.

And its impossible to get better...

I am cried eyes out tonight and it was probably seen by my delusions but they are cold and callous and give zero f***s.

And that is how you know I am going to do it eventually.

Alrighty then that is my raw thoughts you want to hear them.