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И обняв меня обледенелого губами цвета граната спелого, ты меня целуешь до забвения я не забуду это чудное мгновение! хоть родился я в рубашке, рубашка эта не для глажки. след простыл, покрылся серой пылью, и не родился я, чтоб сказку сделать былью......


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MY PERIOD IS BLEEDING TOO LIGHTLY! I TRIED TELLING OTHER PEOPLE THAT IT COULD BE SOMETHING ELSE, BUT THEY SHRUG IT OFF LIKE IT'S NO BIG DEAL! I DON'T WANT A F***ING PARASITE BABY INSIDE ME, I AM ACTUALLY TEMPTED TO PUNCH MYSELF IN THE ABDOMEN JUST TO BLEED NORMALLY AGAIN! I DIDN'T ASK GOD FOR ANY OF THIS, I WANT HIM TO STOP TREATING ME LIKE A F***ING GUINEA PIG AND LEAVE ME THE F*** ALONE!!

KIM KARDASHIAN IS THE SECOND COMING OF HITLER, AND MUST BE ASSASSINATED.

I'm listening to classical music on the radio, heavenly sounding angelic choirs singing, clarinets fluting, pianos tinkling, violins aching, looking s at the trees, sunshine and clouds, the backs of the nearby row houses and in the background hear the ambience of car traffic, my neighbour banging doors and fiddling with bits and pieces in front of his door. Birds are tweeting repetitively too. My head hurts.

Too dispiritd to read or do anything at all. Say it's all a dream. You can wake up now. Im only a figment of your imsgination.

Why do I still feel disappointed, when I knew and expected that no one would ever understand??

Or maybe that IS it -- I'm disappointed because no one would ever understand.


I'm never used to it... When will I ever, even with the knowledge and reminders of it??

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If someone has made it obvious and clear that they aren't thinking about me and that they don't care at all about me or my well-being, why can't I stop thinking about them and worrying about what they think of me?

My father likes reading about celeb nonsense and tell us all about it, He knows it annoys the crap out of both me and my mother as we really couldn't take any less interest in these things, and to top it all, he always manages to interrupt us when we're talking, watching or listening to something, or are busy. He's can be extremely annoying '

Just the other day we were going through all our books and went through them, threw out those we didn't wanna keep and alphabetized the rest. It was a lot of work, and we were both very busy.
Instead of helping out or at least staying out of it he interrupted us with nonsense about the British royal wedding, making us both snap.

That is so typical of him. He's not attuned at all.

He's also very fond of having to talk about things when someone has 5 minutes before they have to go out. In other words: stress factor de lux.

I wished the media would quit the nonsense about how every time there is some sort of incident of mass violence, there tends to be this notion as to whether the person was autistic or had Asperger. Yes, I'm aware of what happened in Sandy Hook, said individual did have AS but, to imply that all people whom tend to keep to themselves or have social difficulties are somehow potential murderers is absurd. I can recall I was always constantly being referred to as the next Jeffrey Dahmer while in school,but, I'd rather be the opposite and more like a Dirty Harry persona for, I've always felt that people whom commit crimes regardless of nature should be behind bars or executed in a sound,humane nature.

Ş̷̢͉͔̝̬̐̇̾̈́͟͜͠o̼̠̙̿͗͊͐͛̋̅̋̕͟͞ͅm͉̖̬͈̄̀͂́͜͠͠ę̖͓̫̘͕̩͑̓͋̽̎̈́͟͞͠ ḋ̲̣̘̮̮͒̐̾̀̓̇̓̚͠a̷͕̲̼̰̻̥̩̰̍̐͛̊̊͐͟ͅỷ̢̧̧̰͇̼̠͚̗̃́͗͒ś͚̗̰̦̺̦̜̠̻͔̋̌̾͗͘̚͞,̴̼̻̮͔͈̬̣̖͒͐̈̿̌͠͝͠ I̛̝̠̗̣̓́͐̚͢ j̶̡̢̮̬̭͖̐̒̊̀̍͐u̧̧̩̮̺̯͕͖̦̝̍͋̄̿͒́͒͝͠͠ş̰̱̦̥̰̦̘͆̇͑̈́̈̔͞t̢͉̼̝̻͉͐͆̒̌́͑͘͡͞͞ f̳̲͈̜͋̐͒̕͘͢͜ế̵͔̳̰͍̝̬͎̞̭̰̄͌̄́̔̚̕͘ẹ̖̣̘͓͓̫͐̐̔̑̔̒͝l̺̹̘̪̩̓̀̑̑̑ l͍̞̬̯͕̤̍͊̅̔̋̆͠ĭ͕̠̳̟͍̠̯̹͕̀͐́̚̕͘͢͡k̵̖̭̞̠̞̘͖̭̫̿̅́̀͊͛̓̚͟͡͡ę̨̨̳̻͇̯̭͒͗̈͊̓̓̈̎͟ͅ Į̛̜̖͎͗͋̒̎͋͂̌͟͠ ẁ̯͎͉̖̪̠̺̦́̑͗͋͜͠ą͉̺̖̪̱̝͙́͗͌͛̉͟n̷̜̞͙͎͓͛͋͂͌͠t̡̨̜͔̖̦̔̆̽̾̾͝͝͝ t̸͕̥̠̦̹̏͗̇̅̾̃͜o̸͕̝͓͍͑̃͂̄͞ͅ s̶͍̣̬̱͚̜͇͇͆͋͑̅͌̀͟͝t̶̡̞̪͔̰̫̤̫̼̳̓̆̆͐̔͒̀̀̐͠ā̢̛̱̬͈͆͊̐̂́͋͘͘͟b̧̘͙̙̗̪̗͓̦̣̉͊̍͊̔̏͞ a͔̬̭͍̺̰͈̓͒́̆͗́̎́̉̕ b̵̧̯̮̠̓̔̌̀̀̋̾̉̈́͟͟͝ļ͕̠̗̝͐̍͗͑͊͠ô̷̢͚͍͖̘̾̊̊̕͢͡n̢̢̟̠̰͕̬̓̽͒̅̓̕͘͟͠͝d̴̨̯̫͈͔̞̉̆͆̍̕͘͟e̛͈̳̝͚̻̙͎͍̫̹̾̉̕̕͠ w̵̧̨̞̥̞̟͍̓͒̉̿͐͒͐͑͠ͅͅo̶̡̖͍̞̣̖̐́͊̈̉̑͢m̴̢̦̹͚̮͐̿̔͐̋̅à̢̡̻̱̘̼̤̦̯̈̈́̈͐̍͞ń̨̡̡͈̙͚͖̽̍̈́̌ a̴͇̦͓̼̜̿̌̽̿͛͆̅̏̂͟͡ṇ̨̛̜̞͙͂͒̀̅͐͗̅͗d̨̗̱̞͙̩̼̩͛͂͐̑̽̉̔͟ ķ͙̘̻̠̬̞͓́͗̾͐̅͟ͅį̸̢̤̟̥̜̏͌́̀͘ḽ̢̧͙̯̹̫̍̆̐̎͋͒͊̀̔͟l̢̡̧̗̹̦̝͉̽͊̾̂̽̈̋̎͟͞ h̷̙̻͍̯̼̹̦̀̂͑̕͝ͅe̢͖̟̰̟͔̰̲̔́̏͊̍̅̔̚͜͟͝r̡̤͉̤̊̍̈̽͋͒͘̕͜͟͠͞,̸̛̤̥̗͍͎͎̥̈̄͆͂̓̈̃͋̚͢ ą̡͈̳̰̩̬̭̈̒̽̿̈́̄̈̈́̕͘l̶̢̹͔̜̉̊͒͒̑̐͗̚͞ͅl̷̢̜̟̟̗̦̳̘͉̖͆̿͊̔̑ b̶̡̛͔̣̖̤̳̞̦̻̓̀̈́͊e̡̧͓̗͙̯͙̩̎͆͊͛͛͞ͅç̛͚͙̥̱͔̓̌͒͗̈̅̈́̅͞a̷̧̫̱̗͕͖͓̅̾͋̓̑̕ͅu̢̫͖̜̙̫̱͈͊̌͊͆̆͜ͅs̢̭̤͖͉͉̐̍̈́̚̕͜͡e̵̛̠̦̘̤͎̗̯͕̎͒̾͂̅̚͞ ṡ̯̫͈̲͖̙̇̅́͂̓̃̀̾͠ḩ̹̣͙͍̟̼͓̔̂͗̂̓̽͋́͐̔͢ͅe̷̢̝̰͙̲͐́̀͋̑̑͡ ī̲͚̲̰̬͆͊͆͊͗͑̇̕͜s̴̡̨̫̙͎͓̭̬͔͒̉̾̉̊ p̴͉̭̹̠̗̉̍̀͆͌̐͘͟͝͞ͅȑ̵͈͔̞̘̋̊̀̄̌̍͊̕͜͟͝ĕ̡̹̗̝̦̠̣̯̀͊̆̓̿̈̿͟ť͔̲̻̤͎̓̅͗̈̃͑̂̕͞t̷̩̪̗͚̼̫̯̹͕̽̀̄͗̃̃ȋ̶̠̝̲̰͙͓̻̼̞̓͊̌͗̈́̀̇͢͞ẽ̤͓̱̱͓̓͗̆̍͟͜͡ř̻͕̟̱̻͎́͂̇́̑̇ t͉̜͔̖̯̪̀̃̒͋̂̓ḧ̸̡̭͖̙̳̼̬͐̆̒͐̆͢͞ͅã̵̝͖̭̭̗̜͇̅̌̓͆͋͒̕ǹ̡̬̹̖͓̝͐͋̑̊͜͢͠ m̥̱̤̰̗͗́̈́̽͘͜͝ͅe̷̢͖͍̠̠̜̲̦̾̓͌̊̍̌͘͢͝͝.̶͔̹̥͇͑͐͒̒̈̍̅͢.̶̡̟̹͈̤̈́̑̽̇͛́͌̏͛.̡̰͓̟͎̫̠̳͈̞̊͌͛̃̈̓͝

The Buddhists have a saying: make no comparisons. It can be a sanity preserving practice in my experience, because there will always be someone who is prettier, cleverer, more successful, more gifted, richer, luckier, slimmer, wiser. Some of those people in my life have been my mentors, thank goodness. You will have something someone else envies, but what a waste of energy envy is. It channels the energy away from your essential self and the use of your gifts, talents and experience. And using them strengthens self worth, whatever they may be. A good cook for example eats better, delights others, and makes a positive contribution to health and happiness, their own and others. Find your star and shine, Witches Cat, I'd love to see you blossom.

Your art.

yay a place to rant without judgement ^^

sorry not a rant. i have already ranted.

I hate people who idealize others and leave them on their own when reality doesn't match up. I hope i'll never meet another romanticizing- idealistic idiot ever again.