scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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10. My friend has been here for three days (which explains me not posting much) and I'm trying hard not to laugh because it looks like he's eating the pillow on the couch he's sleeping on next to me.

1. Chem exam in one hour, math in three. The math is going to be the hardest, yet I'm freaking out over chem the most. I went through the review packets this morning - didn't finish them, as it appears that I just can't force myself to work through anything right now (too hyper, too worked up) - and I understand the material. I know I'll be fine. I'm just totally freaking out.
And actually, I just realized the chem exam is in half an hour. Blast.

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I feel alright.

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Just had another exam, and feel like a complete idiot, for failing to answer a simple question.

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I need to ponder
a little more about reflection
‘cause apparently I AM lacking direction
so I'll stare into my spectres
who're holding those bloody red reflectors
no point walking with introspection no more
holding her thoughtful hand is deafly sore
and it’s making my mind poor
I must enter that revolting
and revolving mirrored door
to speak to the poor
which is me as I’m fictitiously crying on the floor
so mirror
mirror
on the floor
who’s the deadest of them all
is it that one face with those recent knife wounds
is it that face that says ‘…damn you’re one handsome man!’
What about that face who has eatin’ one too many spoons
or that man who has killed one too many forks
what about that fan who constantly scans
looking for imperfection to discern and disown for fear of never knowin’ a woman
is it the face that’s watching time fly by one tear at a time
or that man who’s crying for a single saline drop rather than a blood drop
or that pretentious person whom plays with reflected words after historically popped corks
that person whom sees nothin’ but personified fog
woman
or man
it doesn’t matter man
we’re all dying and we’re all dead
already
man

Written in the Toowong Private Hospital.

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i overdosed yesterday
apparantely 5 50mg sleeping tablets would kill me.
hell no, not me i took 15 and im still here.
my number is high because im in a good mood.

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SuPaStAr,

Dude..., if you ever feel like playin' with your life, and perhaps talk about said playing; I'm here to PM. I'll most likely confuse you with my mad ramblings, but if you want to discuss anything of your choosing, I'm here with a non-judgmental ear.

5. Why'd you take so many tablets in the first place, supastar?

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5.
In London. Not too difficult but am very worn out and already sick of the pretentious people in some of the large, posher stores.

-5. I am exhausted but I have to stay up a little longer so I can get some food into my system...ugh.

I hope you all feel better soon.

I'm at an 8. Just finished reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest for my exam tomorrow, and I've decided that I love the book. It's wonderful. I'm kind of sleepy from laying down.

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Getting headache. But at least I've stopped sneezing.
I feel a bit lonely though.
I have no one to talk to.