I am sad to hear how rough things are for you Raleigh. I haven't had much of a week either - minor surgery on my throat, a damaged shoulder that resists all pain relief, and a knee replacement coming up which is making my current daily life one long episode of various kinds of pain. Because Spring is coming early, and I live surrounded by native trees, the courting and nesting native birds who live here lift my spirits; I am about to plant the strawberries, my Spring ritual, though it is a bit harder to get down and dirty at the moment. Still, once I get going in the garden, I forget about all the rest... and when I walk by the sea and watch the herons, I forget the pain for a while.
I hope there are still good things happening for you Raleigh, by good I mean things that make your heart and/or soul smile, even if fleetingly; or the love of an animal that loves you and whose eyes light up as you approach, or a hug from your favourite person, or moments of wonder and joy from doing things that you love.
((( hugs to you and keeping you in my thoughts, hope you feel better tomorrow )))