scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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I'm like that natually

-5. I want to make things right again. Everything is wrong. Everything hurts. I don't care about what she did. I want my favourite aspie back... She may have been a monster, but I can be one too.

-5
the person i consider my best friend [and my sanity] is going to europe for the week...seeing a sh tload of my favourite bands...and i probably won't be able to talk to him for a while.
i also have a large crush on him, and he knows it. this uncertainty is wreaking havoc on my nerves...i never have luck with men. [if i do, they end up being pieces of sh t in disguise.]
financial aid for school is dragging its arse...if it doesn't get settled by 8/14, i'll have NO HEALTH INSURANCE, as the school will drop my classes.
last but not least, moving......i'm in a huge hurry to relocate for school, but the room i'll be living in won't be open until juuuuuust before classes start. so, i've got a room full of boxes and empty drawers, and nothing to do. grah.

right now i'm p ssed as f ck that one of his pretty friends (the one i'm most jealous of) got commments from him on two of her pictures (one's kind of...erm...very revealing) while i haven't been spoken with at all tonight. i'm actually filled with rage and a ton of adrenaline over that girl. weird, i know.

3. My aunt and uncle told me that I need to do less intellectual things and more social things. I told them that, by their logic, that they need to do more intellectual things and fewer social things, and that it was just a matter of preferance. My uncle changed the subject shortly thereafter.

3. I just farted

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I'm "good" in that I've successfully navigated the biggest pothole that's on the path (I tripped and scratched myself a little); my foreshadow knew what it was and that it was eventually coming, but it couldn't predict when (naturally, nor would I want it to)....

One step at a time.

0. I'm not being ignored any more, but only time can tell me what will happen. Maybe a -1 actually, seeing as I'm preparing myself for the worst.

what's wrong violentcloud?

I don't know if you will've read the many posts about it, but I broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years at easter, after some... infidelity issues. I've come to regret it deeply. Long story short, I have a hell of a hole to dig myself out of. Lots of issues to resolve. However, they can wait until the main issue is sorted - trying to win her back. We'd broken off contact, but now she's talking with me again, and we're meeting up soon. It seems... more hopeful than before, but still, I'm preparing myself for the worst. I just... can't imagine a future without her. Nor do I want to. I don't care what she's done in the past, I just want things the way the were again, or better.
+2, because thinking about the past has put a smile on my face for now.

sorry haven't read any posts about girlfriends,
i think it's possitive that you don't expect anything, cause expectations ruin reality quite often,
i wish you the best though
(and infidelity makes a man mad, it's in the genes, try not to go as far as to be mad over past infidelities)

don't have loveproblems right now (think i have had enough for a long time, we have made peace right now) but computerproblems, guess that's quite inferiour

Around a 2 or 3. An old scar, ten years past; you'd think I would be over it by now (and I would be, I suppose, if I didn't bury it most times...). In any case, I have awful timing to bring these things up.

Sorry about your old scar. I'm recovering from my annual bout with one of those now. Hope you feel better.

I'm -1 today. I feel kinda spooky, floating. I have kinks all up and down my right side.

otoh, I bow to the memory of whoever invented air conditioners.

-25
On Saturday, my mom and my older sister{both NTs} got into the stupidest argument over a mistake my mom committed. She forgot her cell phone because my sister was going to call her at the mall where my mom & I shopped for school clothing. At home, they argued for a few minutes and after my mom left to continue shopping, I tried diffusing the situation by calming down my sister, who wanted to kill me so bad she almost did.{She tried to strangle me.} I now have a cut lip and a black eye from her beating me up verbally. I cried and lost some of my appetite.

I still cannot believe the nerve I had to face my sister.

My mistake.