Into the depths of insanity.

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marshall
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18 Nov 2011, 4:11 pm

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Well yes if I ever do manage to talk to a psychiatirst......I probably would but uhh I am 22 I should not be so paranoid about what my family may or may not think it's such a major issue with my mom I don't even feel like I can tell her anything. Like depending on who I'm hanging out with I sometimes even lie about that......at the same time though the way she is that's sometimes the better option becuase of how nosy she is.......I mean I know she has reason to express concern about me and stuff like a mom would but I just can't get past the way she goes about it. It drives me freaking insane.......I can't deal with her stress of obsessing over where I might be if I haven't called her, what she would think if she actually knew more then I tell her on top of my own stress of deciding what I want to do and what the consequences of what I decide to do will be. I have to make choices based on my experiances, what I want and what I don't want not based on how she might react. That is mostly what I am doing but I wish I could just tell her and get it all on the plate and go from there......I mean if she has a problem with it and kicks me out I have places I can go it would suck because then I would officially be homeless.

I mean she's not going to freak out and call the cops or mental health services on me over anything, she just might not like it and be angry and not want me staying at her house anymore......well at least that's what I like to think but then when I really start thinking about talking to her about it I start wondering if I really can trust her I mean what if she did do that? then I would be screwed......moreso than I am now...and so I just continue being as vauge as possible about things so she can't ask too many questions.

Sorry. I feel bad because it sounds like your relationship with your mom is pretty f***ed up and dysfunctional. That's why I think it might be better to work out ways to deal with her through a psychologist. That way you can keep things confidential.

It sounds like you have a pretty clear chemical based depression, but there is so much anxiety on top of that due to your current life situation. If you can eventually get SSI and find a decent place to live away from your mom I think you'll start feeling a lot better.


Well I am welcome other places so I don't spend a lot of time at my moms house.


That's a good thing.



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18 Nov 2011, 5:14 pm

kevinjh wrote:
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Into the depths of insanity.



i feel scared a bit when i look at your avatar and read what you say.
i hope very much that you live a long life, but i wonder if you may not live long.
i hope you can be helped up to a happier platform.


Why be scared by the avatar? Although it has eyes (eye contact issues), the overall appearance is one of the injured members of a group. It portrays the result of something that remains unidentified. As for what was said, the text is more coherent than that of the average internet user. Capitalization and punctuation are even used correctly with minor errors anyone would make.


whatever, she looks and sounds like someone i knew that ended their life.

i no longer am worried about sweetleaf. she has ample support and understanding. at the time i wrote what i wrote, i did not know that.



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18 Nov 2011, 6:54 pm

Are counselors in your area allowed to disclose information? In Los Angeles, at the very least, the counselor may not disclose information even to relatives of those counseled. Perhaps, getting a better understanding of your own life by utilizing another perspective can help.



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18 Nov 2011, 9:27 pm

kevinjh wrote:
Are counselors in your area allowed to disclose information? In Los Angeles, at the very least, the counselor may not disclose information even to relatives of those counseled. Perhaps, getting a better understanding of your own life by utilizing another perspective can help.


No its confidential unless you say you're planning to cause harm to yourself or others.



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18 Nov 2011, 11:18 pm

I hope that you get things straightened out and that you can start enjoying life in the future. I care about you.Image


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