scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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4 . . . I have to go with my family to the capital and I wanna be alone

4. I am in a new workplace and just got yelled at because I guessed at something instead of asking questions. My last workplace I got yelled at for asking questions, this workplace I am yelled at for not asking questions. I cant keep up with it all?!?!?

0.
I am concluding that I am better without people and people are better without me.
Wherever I look, others peoples friends always seem to be cared about so much and so loved, but it never happens for me.
No matter how I try to feel valued, evidence eventually points to my just being there.

2

I want to jump back into my shell
'cause living this autistic life
and trying to be normal
may just 'cause hell
ever since I took that step and fell
Kanner with his funky spell
dropped me down this wishing well
I’m sitting on your coins ‘cause I’m abnormal
each subsequent coin dropped causes strife
‘cause it’s worth more than I’ve got to sell

-10

1.5

Feeling a bit shell-shocked after hearing about the bridge collapse in Minnesota, brought flashbacks of the Ash Wednesday earthquake in 2001. Otherwise, I'm waiting for a lucky break to call people from my church to relay information about my autism-related photography project.

-2.
Everything always seems so unsolvable and bleak when it comes to interracting with others as I cannot make myself understood and any attempt will just seem like an excuse to not change.

6. Yay for naps, not so much yay for this evening.

-10

The only two Aspie women I was truly interested in dating are not available to me. (One is in a relationship, the other doesn't want a relationship).

And the only Aspie woman who lives even within 200 miles of the school I will be attending is only 18 years old, bisexual, and practices witchcraft. (I am a Christian, and I prefer dating Aspie woman closer to my age--I am 27).

Tim

-7 there's no aspie women for me
things are bad...I wish I had a life
so all this could be a memory to me
I want a reality, not a virtual thing

3. I have PMS at the moment and my friends got a taste of my Dark Side, this evening. I also have to go into work and make up some hours, tomorrow. I've missed my stop on the way to work and I had to miss a day of work, yesterday. Things are going to run more smoothly. I'm hoping that they do. I try to act all nice and jolly all the time, and than it backfires around this time of the month. I'll be fine, tomorrow. I'm the most happiest, when I'm at work, working.

-3.5

-1. Feeling a little less optimistic as each day goes by.

-10

Being stuck in a hospital bed for two weeks with no one to talk to for four days tends to give you a nasty case of cabin fever.

4 again. not happy, not unhappy.