scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Hurricane Dean and a tape of a dog rescue in WV made me feel a little depressed.
I like dogs & that tape that's being shown almost brought me to tears.

1. First day of school, but I had no schedule. I spent most of the day waiting for my schedule, which I made, and kicked ass. One interesting note-During lunch, I saw a girl, semi attractive, sitting alone. Went over to try and say 'Hi'. The attempt failed miserably, as she was busy texting on her cell phone, and had no penchant for discussion, but I'm hardly concerned. Key bit here is that I actually started a conversation with a random person, which is improvement.

-1.

I would have been a mess today anyway. I'm just more a mess than I thought.

I'm a 4.5 today.


I feel sort of flattened out, probably from the Celexa (I can never shut up about my depression problems, I know!) At least I'm not falling into a black hole any more! But I'm still desperate for ACTION! I need to get my ass down to Social Servies to tell them I need a room or apartment because my mom kicked me out (not true, but since I'm still on social assistance and will be for another month at least, why not?) I'm too lazy and under-the-weather (not really... I just feel fat and heavy and full from eating too much, and I'm tired and the flesh in my throat is burning) oh well, I can go on a diet later. When I get my check I can go on another shopping spree and go to food banks.

7.
Spent an hour or so chatting to another aspie again... Seem to get on well with him.
Spent a few hours with my ex who wore these amazing special contact lenses that make the eyes red and black like a werewolf... I so want some.
Worn out now from talking so much.

6. Some sort of emotionless state.

-8

Still pissed at the university, and they have refused to contact me as I asked them to, meaning they're pulling more shenanigans.

I'm going for a run, and maybe buying some free weights to work on strength training.

-1. My friend just tried to push and push me to see if my feelings could be hurt. I have no problem with this mini sociology experiment, seeing as I've done my fair share, but it's still a minor wound that I have to fix up. Not a huge problem, but brought me down.

-3

The friend that betrayed me is going to have to face up to me, it's only a matter of time.

6... I feel better now... my mother told me to call for that job and sitting there and punching the numbers wasn't bad at all, and listening to the message... oh well, I'll do it again tomorrow.


Also, I'm wondering if it's okay for me to go off the citalopram if I want to go overseas to volunteer (and there are rules that you can't be on anything). Maybe username88 can come with me-- we can volunteer overseas together! It would be an adventure to tell all you guys... maybe we can ALL do this together! Anyway, if it's not safe to go off the stuff, and it probably sin't, I still have major issues, we can stay in Alberta in an apartment, go to school and have lots of fun here and get an education!

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8. Relieved.

Mind you, I still have school today, but I'll take it.

8.

I messaged Ashleigh, asking why she hates me so much, and haven't had a reply. I also need to start thinking about reading up on next term's Biology syllabus.

5. Indifferent.
Got my Cadfael boxed set. Love anything set in medieval period.
Dull weather, drained. Nothing much else.

3. I have a Music Theory placement exam today. I studied for like 2 weeks, but I still don't think I'll do all that well.

4.
was sick today. lesson numbah 1: never mix alcohol and cannabis