scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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2.5, maybe 3.

I want to curl up in a ball and cease to exist. . . I'm falling behind in school- again- because I hurt so much, and because I'm going through landlord hell.

And whiny.

Not sure what's worst; the potential gas leak, the lack of hot water, the spasming back pain, the lack of health insurance, or the fact they laughed at me when I told them I would have to get a lawyer. . .

It's not that there aren't good things. . . it's just. . . it's all adding up so fast to so much. . .

And whiny, damnit. I hate it when I'm whiny. I'm always wanting to tell myself to shut up. . .

Time to spend the afternoon playing phone tag with every legal and housing service in the state. Y'all have fun now. . .

I hope you feel better soon, Jainaday (and you too Lemon); that sucks.

4ish. Two diagnoses today, probably more next week. She's a nice lady; I don't trust her, but I like her.
I'm tired.

-4. Feeling on the brink of wanting to hurl myself off a bridge.

Being in close contact with my mother takes its toll. It's not healthy for me to be here.

4.
Average, I guess. Any day without landlord angst is a good day.

6 and on the way up.

6.5, possibly 7. or 8, even.

My mood fails to be expressed as a discrete quantity. . .


Dear God I love ballet. Even more when it doesn't hurt. . .


And Adam, you'll never read this, but I'll owe you forever for fixing my back. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't dance. . .

And it didn't hurt that Mykle brought me my guitar. . .

6.
I love roleplaying.
And watching the old 80s Tv show, 'Beauty And The Beast'

Oh my! Someone else actually remembers that show! I was just a kid when I saw it, but I loved it!

I'm about a 6 or 7 myself.

I'm 5.5... apprehension about something that's going on between my mother, plus all the good news like finding another girl (Autisticstar) for our autism apartment (good chance she's the type of person), yay! I really really hope MADDuck is alright; I'm sort of paranoid and there's a tornado heading his way!

Yeah, they recently released seasons 1 and 2 on DVD...I used to watch it too and had it on video when a child.

5 Tired, of course. Longer work day than usual, but a lot was accomplished.

I'm still 5.5... telling myself that my mother's anger and hatred and frustration and depression and hopeless feelings and disappointment and impatience will pass!

*meows worriedly.*

-4.

5.5... I'm so relieved that I have stuff to do tomorrow to occupy me... first going to the mall and looking around, then in the afternoon going to the shrink to get the letter, then going to Social Services to hand it in, then going to the pharmacy to get some more Celexa, staying in the mall until it closes, getting cheap drinks and food from the $ store, then staying down here in the computer room and the TV room all night... so I don't have to be alone with my mother!

I think others are interpreting the -10 to +10 scale differently than me. 2-3 would be mildly happy for me.

I'm at +1 after spending an interesting evening with some friends; but am hoping to calm back down to an optimal 0 later on this evening. It was a slightly intersting day.

Good fortune,

- Icarus is Emotionally Neutral