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Dishonest/unethical people.
And I'm trapped in the middle..as ALWAYS

anyone who can do that to a puppy deserves to have the same done to them!!

If Meg grew to the size of a baby panther and started to leap up on my cousin with her claws out, I would lock her up in a room somewhere if my cousin said she was scared of her.

I guess that's the difference between me and her with her dog though.

Just lets her dog leap all over me.

Don't think she knows that I'm 95% terrified of dogs.

I want some chocolate.

I have no chocolate.

I want a chocolate.

I can't have a chocolate.

I would get a chocolate.

I cannot get a chocolate.

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Fed up of people treating autism as the Worst Thing Ever.

It used to be anti scientific fear of vaccines. Vaccines don't even cause autism.

Say they did. They'd rather have a kid die of measles then have a kid like me. Charming...

Now they'd rather risk dying of covid than have a life like mine.

Again, hard not to take personally.

I wish my self image wasn't so dependent on mum's opinion and I had a better set of barriers up with her.

Her politics gets in the way of my identity.

I don't come on WP to hear ableist, respectability politics BS.

Just WHY did I take music as a GCSE? I know it hasn't got much relevance in my adult life but that's not the point, I wish I could go back to my 14-year-old self and choose more normal options. I only chose music because I got obsessed with pianos. I found the actual subject very hard and I couldn't read music. The group was full of rather intelligent girls with good focus on their grades, so I didn't fit in with them for a start. And I failed the music exams anyway because I didn't ever understand any of the music lessons, all I wanted was to be a pianist. Yes, I learnt to play songs on the piano without reading music. Reading music is like trying to read Chinese.
Nobody else in my form took music for a GCSE option. They all took cool subjects like history, geography, home economics, textiles or art. Well, art was one of the other subjects I took, which I don't regret because at least it was normal and the subject made sense, unlike music. But I got a low grade in my art exam for being TOO CREATIVE! Can you believe that? Art is all about being creative, that was what we were told by all our art teachers, and then when the time came where we could basically draw/paint/make anything we wanted in our art exam, I came up with a very creative, artistic idea; I actually went out and bought a couple of china plates and decorated them then they had to go into a kiln for 24 hours to dry. So I'd invested a lot of time, effort and money into my art exam, only to be told that I did not pass because my work was "too original", meaning I didn't get the idea out of a book but should have done. That annoyed me though. Nobody told us that we had to choose ideas from a book. This was GCSE, not some younger kid's art homework. I thought I would have deserved a higher grade for all the effort I put into it.
Ironically I find being imaginative much easier than reading books.

f*****g scum on this f*****g scum site make me want to quit.

Making things that aren't their business into their business.

Teenagers trying to be edgy all the time. Who think life's gonna be perfect.

Rich people thinking they're superior cos £££.

My real life is good. My social media life is good. It's just on here that I come across such crap.

People should really be apologising to me on here for the implication I am lazy because my doctor and the government agree that it's not healthy for me to work.

This world sucks.

People always used to accuse me of moaning and sometimes still do today, though not so much as I've learnt to be more positive and chilled. But I am a rather verbally expressive person, so I like to speak out what is on my mind and have other people know and understand how I'm feeling about something. I don't think that is moaning. It's called communicating.

When I was a kid everyone around me always said, "stop moaning", "you're a moaning mini", "you moan about everything", "moan, moan, moan, moan, moan", etc. And people used that word so much that it kind of lost its meaning, so it actually made me moan more.
I think moaning (as in complaining in a high-pitched voice) was a sort of stim I used to get my thoughts and feelings off my chest, and because I had an anxiety disorder, a lot of my thoughts were negative.
All children moan, but apparently I "moaned more" than the average child. I think children moan more when around adults, while I moaned around adults AND other kids. I couldn't help it though. I was quite extroverted in some ways and also had hyperactivity, so verbalising my mind was too easy and I couldn't always hear myself as moaning.
Instead of everyone saying "stop moaning", I think adults should have addressed the issue with me more, give a detailed definition of the word "moan" and educate me on how to communicate my feelings without it being a constant whine to others.
Instead I had to work on it myself when I got older and I've worked so hard that now I very seldom get told to stop moaning. But when I do, it's kind of triggering, and I end up yelling at the person who told me to stop moaning. I've just come to hate that word.

It's like when the words "stop moaning" are said to me, it feels like they're really saying "I don't care how you're feeling so shut up". In fact I'll rather just be told to shut up.

I think it's just paranoia.

Two different trolls.

Am I that easy to pick apart on this one issue?

Hit a nerve implies I'm the bad person. I'm not.

Is paranoia part of social anxiety? Is it inheritable?

The person annoying me on here is technically not breaking rules though. Foe list isn't working so I'll avoid him.

The one on the other site was a mod on a site I shouldn't have been on (in retrospect). The rule was 'nae rules'. The mods picked on people. I don't mean in a mod/teacher way either. I mean they'd be anti-semitic, anti-Irish, ableist, anti-Ziganist, racist, homophobic, transphobic etc against the guests on the site. All the stuff that would normally be banned. Whatever your 'weakness' was they picked at it. So they found some guy with an Asian name and changed it to something racist etc.

It was fun for about 5 minutes cos you could do whatever you wanted on it but then the edginess wore off and it just became bitter and nasty. Esp cos he used to bring up my edgy jokes like I was being serious. I was just trying to make people laugh.

Turns out I need rules, not pressure to be edgy.

They basically made me out to be every single stereotype out there. Workshy was right up there. It got under my skin tbh.

I don't mix with other fans now. My town's pretty much Celtic fans so it's easy to avoid rivals or just not talk football with them (ridiculously hard to keep Scottish football apolitical and away from stereotypes). I don't tell edgy jokes online anymore or with new people, only with people I trust not to take them the wrong way.

If someone's going to judge people who can't work or people who can't find work, I'm not going to waste my time on them. It's different if they judge someone who acts like my dad admitted he did & keeps getting given jobs & deliberately failing them so they can go back to the giro. But even that's not really immoral beyond laziness (unless they're a doctor or something, then yikes...)

My dad has actual paranoia so it worries me when I get scared. Doesn't help that online 'schizophrenia tests' don't take autism/anxiety into account.