scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Still a 6! MADDuck is actually going through the process!


And of course username88 is ready to come anytime!


But I really hope he feels better! I think he does now! He's probably researching concerts in Alberta on Google or something.

well that shoots me up to an 8 then!!

It's nice to be appreciated.

It's all coming together!

Hartzofspace may have joined our club!


I'm so excited! Finally another woman!


5.9, but that's only because of the clinical depression!

-5

I need to get the hell away from this woman. She's poison. Whenever anything gets the slightest bit peaceful, she sweeps in to berate and insult me for things I don't even know I've done, then insult me more for my ignorance. If I can bear the next few weeks, somehow, I think I can save up enough to last me until I can find a new job, if my father will let us crash with him for a while. That's a big "if".... but something's gotta give. Nothing's worth being in this place anymore.

At least I'm finally clear-headed enough to see that this isn't my fault. All my life I've been trying to please her and failed over and over. I'm finished. Her feelings are not my responsibility. I know exactly why my father left her.

Gwen, I can really relate! My mother used to be like that when she was depressed! Then she moved out of Montreal and isn't so depressed now... still, you need to either get out of there now (hint hint, nudge nudge, read my threads) or find out what her problem is and either get her out of the situation she's in or get her some anti-d's.


I'm a 6! I feel so alive and excited since talking to MD, and seeing that more people are seriously considering our commune, and reading that hilarious K-Mart thread in Random Discussion and that hilarious toilet humor thread in Members-Only Discussion!

Id say about a 7, I have work tomorrow, and I have not been in 5 days (vacation) im trying to re-adjust my sleep pattern to allow me to stay awake during 3rd shift, i saw many people over the week off I have not seen since I was little (1990) and am still processing all the stories of stuff I did and was like and finally im drinking a good becks beer.

Glad you're feeling nice. ^_^

I don't think my mother is depressed. She's already on anti-depressants. The best theory I can come up with is that it must give her some sense of superiority, to do what she does. My fault has been in accepting it and being gentle in return, for too long. She's never going to change. My other siblings fought back and/or left. I guess it's my turn now.

I don't think you guys are going to want me in your commune. My son is almost two and although he is polite and well-disciplined, he is of a very loud and energetic temperament. He's a hard sensory assault to cope with at times.

4-8
My mood seems to want to fluctuate between both... o.0
I don't get me... sometimes I feel really strong and fine, other times I begin to sink down... until eventually I explode back up again... and that stuff.

-1 Still not over my sore throat. Just drank a big cup of hot chocolate so I feel alot better though.

0


bored.

0
Frustrated... Paranoid and irritated... 0 intstead of minus because I have felt good recently, and so the effect probably isn't so extreme or long lasting...
I sometimes hate them NT groups of people.

Gwen, maybe she needs a different AD, maybe hers don't work so well. Or maybe she's just ignorant, I dunno.


I love kids who are noiy and rambunctious; I don't mind them a bit; they're welcome in my area of the commune!


I feel nice still... 6. Still clinically down in a way... wierd unpleasant split feeling... but the situational stuff is cool.

7.

So, my new keys wouldn't work in the front door. I went to get the spare key from next door, asked if they had them(because they permanently keep a front door key to our house), and then there was silence. I asked again. And a middle aged woman said "I'm waiting for a word", and it was of course "please". I hate being patronised. I said it in a nice manner, it didn't sound like I was a yob. But no, she had to be patronising to a 17 year old, all because I forgot "please". It was a question, not a request. She gives me the keys and says "give them back as soon as you unlock the door, because your sister will need to get in". I leave the door unlocked while I'm downstairs, it's not as if I won't be here. Talk about cold reception, all because I forgot the P word. I normally say please, but due to being somewhat breathless and grumpy from the soles of my trainers hurting, I forgot that.

I feel like Im less exciting than other people even though I think I am deep down.. I want to be but sometimes its like I dont know how or something or that somethings stopping me, I dont know what number to put though. I think someone just has to help me out at first to get me going.. Or something lol.

So in recent times it's gone something like: -
6,6,7,6,8,0.
After 0, it's now gone to about -5... f*** it... I feel very agitated and frustrated... I try so hard in so many aspects of life and stuff... I've been rewarded with my own self gain of knowledge, but what good is knowledge if I can't gain anything else from it? All I've been rewarded with is 2 terrible relationships, 1 an emotionally immature girl who didn't know what she was doing, the other some b****. Hate her.
And I guess tbf I'm a lot more socially adept at least...

After that, a new page was turned - I haven't been in too bad a state - I get the feeling I've managed to be strong enough to get someone else to like me who's certainly a lot more emotionally mature than the other 2...

My big problem though - on my course atm I'm very incompetent in the things I'm currently doing... this is my music course... the build-up to my 'life'... and when part of my life is on the line, it sucks. + not feeling socially well oiled right now...

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I used to feel the same way! I still feel like that sometimes but rarely. We can be exciting together!


I'm a 5.5! Why do I want to sleep so much all of a sudden? I slept all last night, then I went back to bed for like an hour today...