scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-7...


I feel very distant. I then realize I'm fading out and snap back to life, bu still feel like I could fall back into it and never come out. I'm in such a fog! When I'm in a room I feel like it could seal up and trap me inside forever.

I CANNOT close my eyes or go to sleep or daydream or think about something else. Every time this happens, I lose a part of my soul and the damage is permanent. It happened to me in my sleep a few nights ago. Am I going psychotic? I hope so, so this isn't real. But even so, it's real. It's real in my head.

0.85
The renovation of my house's bathroom will not be done until tonight & I'm going to be alone with the two guys set to finish work.

-6.7


Dementors do exist.

-9.
I have been contemplating whether escaping might be better than staying.
My landlord's daughter keeps bullying me and harrassing me when she sees me, having a go at me for not coming to see her. Like she is my f'ing teacher. According to my letter, the council is paying all my rent. According to her, they aren't and I owe her such and such an ammount.
Thus I went to her brother and said if she doesn't leave me alone I will smash her face in and burst into tears in the bar they run.
I am tired of having to live on edge.

0... I once found a shadow of solace in 0. Numbness... Emptiness. Like a pillar of just the right height where I might sit and meditate my life away... A place where the demons cannot quite reach me, and a place where it is difficult to fall from... 0 seems so... very far away now. Difficult to fall from. So many lovely negetives here; in away, the negetives have some advantage over the positives; the positives are just a higher place to fall from, and the higher the fall, the greater the injury. 0 seems so... very far away.

edited. Stupid emo b**ch,

(no relevant number in this case)

Very bored here.

Tim

9. had a good meal with the parents, and thinking about someone.

(once again, no particular number)

I am seriously considering friends with benefits, if I can't find an actual relationship.

Tim

Very lonely. I think true love is a myth. Words, just words always words.

about a 2.
the roller coaster is low,
I didn't hear from a dear friend today
I got rained on.

-10

No one who meets my preferences will ever be interested in me.

The only type of person who would date me is someone who is desperate, and who will settle for the first guy who comes along. And, for me, it's just a matter of being that guy.

Tim

Been about -7... it feels overwhemingly horrible and plain out unjust when you feel this sorta stuff.

I usually love myself, but manic swings take it one step in the wrong direction... when up, my complex wired brain is my greatest strength... when down, however, my complex wired brain is my greatest weakness.

I would have to say that I am usually about -7 .... but I can swing to a +7 at the drop of a hat ( well actually after hearing to a happy song) ...but doesn't take long to go back to -7 .

Maybe this should/ could have been a POLL !?