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+10

I got my car serviced today, and it turned out that there was nothing wrong with my car. On Monday, the engine light went on as I was pulling out of a parking lot, and my car died. I stopped the car. After turning it on again, it was working fine.

It might have been some bad gasoline.

Also, it was mostly sunny today, despite being under a tornado watch nearly all day.

Also, I think I did well yet again on an economics test.

Also, a new episode of South Park comes on tonight.

Tim

-10 -> -7, rather ahead of projected schedule... As I begin to climb, my fingers and toes seem to find the nearly imperceptible holds quite readily; I'd nearly forgotten, I'm a natural climber...

Systems Status Report (T+ 5D):

Primary power is back online, but output is currently at minimal levels; it will take a couple of days to ramp primary power back up to cruising output. Still, with that to supplement auxiliary power, repairs should move quickly now. When primary power was routed to the core engram storage system, an unexpected power surge occurred. I took the system offline and performed a low-level diagnostic; as a result, I discovered that the fault that caused the surge and the fault that stalled the damage assessment were located in the same series of engrams. After placing the engrams in isolation and de-constructing them, I discovered they contained a very serious virus; apparently the virus was able to enter a protected deep engram section when I recently attempted to perform a major systems upgrade. It is still unclear how the virus was not only able to bypass, but to disable, multiple layers of system defense that are in place; it's sophistication is beyond anything I've experienced before. But analyzing the virus in isolation enabled me understand how corrupt data had been spread throughout the system, which ultimately led to the recent systems meltdown. By modeling the spread of the virus in an isolated virtual system, I've been able to tag and isolate most of the corruption; I've scheduled a systems purge to correct and compensate, but purging systems are currently offline, so this will need to wait for a bit. Still, it was a promising discovery, and I've been able to complete the damage assessment now, and finalize a repair routine. In the part of the assessment that was previously incomplete, I've discovered that several old primary systems that have been damaged and offline for years are now back online ; they need significant tuning, but appear to be functional. So, while the recent systems crash caused significant damage, it also managed to re-enable certain primary systems that were previously discarded as being beyond repair. Most interesting. I will need to take care in re-balancing all of the primary systems, but as that needed to be done in any case, this recent discovery appears to be a boon.

Currently the backup regenerative repair system is working on bringing the primary repair systems back online. With primary power restored, and the primary RRS units soon to be back online, repairs should proceed smoothly.

End Systems Status Report

Funny, I woke up with "Garden Party" by Ricky Nelson running through my head...
[youtube]http://youtube.com/watch?v=aZMTNHlzLK8[/youtube]I went to a garden party, to reminisce with my old friends;
A chance to share old memories and play our songs again.
When I got to the garden party, they all knew my name;
No one recognized me, I didn't look the same...

But it's all right now, I learned my lesson well.
You see, ya can't please everyone, so ya got to please yourself.

Damn, I really want to learn to play this song on my guitar right now (it's a great guitar song); just as soon as my hand heals, perhaps. But for now, at least I can sing...

-3.
Sometimes I think people only really care or notice you when you are dead.

-4

Sometimes I think people don't even notice you when you're dead and the only way to get noticed is to do something like running naked on to the field during the Super Bowl.

I have lost all my faith in human beings, NT and aspie alike.
I find all to be either false in their concern or to decide that because you don't fit their idea of their kind, you are not a valuable life.

Thanks.

1

Initial renovation is done, now they have to fix a small leak in the shower.
Group was today and I thought I pigged out on grapes, bread, and hummus.
I learned from a good female friend of mine that one of her relatives was killed in a freak accident, so I feel for her & her family.

Otherwise, I am now preparing for the upcoming College Fair since two colleges now want to interview me.

-2

If you want to regain your faith in humanity, I'm not the right guy to talk to, I'm not exactly a big fan of humans. I did notice that post though, otherwise I wouldn't have responded to it. Captain obvious, signing out.

(once again, no number assigned)

Wondering if I should transfer to another college.

Tim

-5

The town I live in is causing me a great deal of stress.

Tim

-7. Every depressive episode kills a piece of me, and I'll never be the same afterwards.


And also, I'm so depressed about the parts of me that died that I don't have the energy to save what's left of me!

-2.
Exhausted as I, as usual, left sleep too late knowing I had to get up 4 hours later for the dr.
I also weighed myself and am peed off at how heavy I am. 5'9 1/2 and 138Ibs.
I want to be 133.

I know what that feels like, understand it to the core of my being. In truth, every one of us dies a little each day, as the finite seconds between here and the expiration of our mortal coils tick away one by one. Some of us seem to be cursed to die more quickly, more painfully, or in other ways that are not right or natural; it is the way of things, of this life we find ourselves thrown into... To survive in this life, those such as you and I must be blessed with more than our due of spirit; I'm guessing you have reserves you've never even discovered yet; you're so young... Be strong, sweet Ana; take pride and courage in your innate abilities as a healer, an encourager. You make people happier, feel better; find some warmth in the reflection of those fires... I hope you find a way to heal thyself; you've a good soul.

-7 -> +4. I'm feeling unexpectedly good. I believe +4 is the highest rating I've ever posted here...? Interesting; I woke up this morning and found myself pondering the folk lore surrounding the Will-o'-the-wisp.

Systems Status Report (T+ 6D):

Once again, repairs are proceeding ahead of schedule, this time far ahead. Primary power is up to 1/3 cruising output and continuing to climb. The backup regenerative repair system brought one of the four primary RRS units back on-line; this unit was immediately tasked with repairing one of the other three units, and then those two in turn repaired the remaining two. Primary systems are being brought back online and thoroughly tested. Numerous data couplings connecting the primaries were destroyed, so new couplings to bypass these faults are currently being generated for several systems. As hoped, core creative and analytical systems appear to be functioning. Analysis of the old primaries that were discarded by now back online indicate them to be largely emotive in nature; I now recall why I originally discarded those systems, but that was over 10 years ago; perhaps I can use that extra decade of experience to tune them properly this time around; that is what I will attempt. Emergency quarantine of dangerous systems has been upgraded to primary quarantine; the point defense system is online in case of any quarantine breaches, but as the primary quarantine is stable and well powered, these are unlikely. Unfortunately, the primary defense grid was damaged beyond repair, and will need to be regenerated from scratch. Installed a blank defense grid, and loaded it with "Trust No One v1.0"; this should suffice for a core defense for the moment, but records indicate that this defense mode has several inherent flaws, and will need numerous adjustments; this will take some time, but as I've gone through the exercise of deeply custom tuning the defense grid before, I hope to do so once again, this time with benefit of more experience. The loss of core ethics routines continues to be of some concern; primary quarantine is in place, but that is a "nothing gets in, nothing gets out" arrangement, and I need to be able to access my dangerous subsystems safely if I am to be what I was once again. I've installed a blank ethical construct, and loaded it with the following base ethics programs:

- Right & Wrong for Dummies v1.0
- Chivalry v2.0
- Hammurabi Justice v1.2
- Spirit of a Healer v1.0
- Spirit of a Defender v2.0
- Superhero Complex (Antihero Variant) v9.11
- Robby the Robot Emergency Self-Overload (tuned for loved ones) v1.0
- Pirate's Code of Honour v1.3
- Anything for a Friend v5.2

There are other base ethics programs that I might load, but integrating and tuning these nine will take some work, and I do not wish to tax primary systems too heavily so soon after a melt-down. These will provide a good starting point for re-construction of my ethical containment routines; once again, my hope is that I will be able to temper the re-build with additional life experience, and become something greater than what I once was. Outlook: positive.

End Systems Status Report

In the spirit of my newly found life, today's song is brought to you by The Eagles, who truly knew how to soar, as I will soar. Here's another song I need to learn to play (I already know all of the words...)

This performance was recorded the same year I was born.

[youtube]http://youtube.com/watch?v=efKw8i21Tu4[/youtube]Take it easy, take it easy;
Or let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy...

Lighten up while you still can;
don't even try to understand.
Just find a place and take your stand,
and take it easy...

Lucky me; I've already found a beautiful place to take my stand.

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2.75

Today there was a test in Chemistry.
I know I will do appallingly bad on it, since I handed it back in partially complete.

Welcome to the club. I have yet to find a girl who does not find my me and my interests in science boring.

I would say my mood is an 8 out of 10. A stressful day, but I did decent on my quizzes and it turns out I'm actually doing very well on my biology lab.

2ish. I stepped on a toad, and he's dead. I didn't mean to; poor, poor, poor little toad. I'm sorry.