why do people care if others they hate kill themselves?

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age is different for women. its not valued the same as with men. also you got to have a relationship and experience all that. so i't be easier for you to be ok being alone. knowing what you had .

I don't even know what I'm missing and never will. I'll never be touched or held when I down. i'll never hear a woman say she loves me, when i go to work. I'll never get to be myself, which is to please a woman and make her happy.

sorry if I caused you anxiety, though I don't think you're be alone forever. women tend to always get a bf eventually. I've never seen one still single for more than a year. every girl I tried to date is in a relationship, one just had a baby. yet I'm still alone.

tell me how horrible I am , but then get upset that I want to kill myself. makes no sense.
I get that I'm trash and worthless so just let me die.

I know what you mean, but I honestly wonder about the accuracy of the the phrase Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. From the perspective of experience, it would have been better to have never met him.
You cant know that Sly, you might feel it intensely, but you can not know that for certain. Life changes, all sorts of unexpected positive and negative things can happen.

You didn't cause me anxiety , I'm anxious anyways, it doesn't take a lot to trigger it, but thats my piece to work on. I feel similar to how you feel. Even if I am alone forever, I can not control that, I certainly wont seek a relationship to avoid being alone though, the wrong relationship can change a person in negative ways, and nothing, not even the blissful moments you seek with another is worth that price.
I know you feel down about all of this, and if I could use words to make you feel more content I would, I like your posts, and I would miss reading them if you stopped posting for some reason.

Because few people actually hate people enough that they would want them to kill themselves. Few people are so callous. Plus, I highly doubt that you are "trash" and "worthless". You're just labelling yourself and making assumptions about other people's feelings. What you say is not an objective fact. It's a feeling. So is wanting to kill yourself. So please don't end your life based on a feeling.

I shave now, though it makes the acne more visible. how did you stumble on it?

yeah I've told one has to lie, cheat, and steal to get ahead in life, and everyone does it, and I must being lying when I say I wouldn't do it.
whats congenital?

I don't either. I feel so out of touch with everyone I truly believe I belonged in the 20-40s. I just don't belong in this time. suppose one good thing is in the next few generations people like me will have been breed out of existence. all that be left is the normal non caring hurt other people, but they all do it so they all seem to be ok with it.

idk at least the slaves had worth. i don't like more support slavery, but still they were valued and worthy. where as nowadays said people are just worthless and wished to die by others. I suppose slavery for thousands of years(ie not just blacks) keep worthless people alive wher otherwise the empires could have just killed them off.

I don't know people like me are just a burden tot them. some will outright come out and say they want us dead. we are drains on the system, stealing from them and need to die, it's natures way they say.

well if i'm not valuable then I'm trash its an either or. so I'f I'm not a real man then I'm worthless trash that's just making it harder for them to find a real man. so why not do it. I'm really lost at what to do. nothing will help. I'll never be good enough. so whats the point in fighting the unavoidable. delaying the what will come and can't be stopped.

I'm trying not to hate them but yet I hate everything they say and think. to treat other people as objects to value them soely on money they have, is so inhuman. ugh.

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Please don't ever go backwards, it ended for a reason and you felt pain because what happened was wrong; be respectful of that hurt and your worth as an honest person and don't harm yourself again by going back to a harmful situation.

I have a few views on this outlook, I dont want to rehash the list of negatives that has happened to me, some things can not be undone, I had those experiences, each of them left an invisible scar, a sensitivity, a weak spot which remains many years later.
I realised that my modest hopes and dreams were not realistic, and that striving for them, ignoring my reality was harming my well being. This was a deeply painful yet liberating moment for me, a rebirth of sorts.
I started to notice the positives in my life and worked on truly appreciating them, small concrete things like how the sun felt on my face, the noise leaves on trees make when wind blows through them, being handed a cup of tea, having a plentiful supply of food etc. This was the start of me deciding what would actually make me happy, and its different for everyone, but looking at what I have, that many people do not, was a shift in perspective, away from what other people have, that I do not, and it honestly feels like the better way to approach life.


I have decided that I do not want another relationship, not until I have learned from the mistakes of the past (otherwise I heading straight for another painful relationship experience), applied this information and made lasting alterations to my way of being, become self reliant again, and value my true self as I am: strengths and areas that will always need work. All of this will take time and energy, but I view it as an investment in myself as a person of value.

I was re-reading that thread which DoubleCatrin opened and I then I stumbled on your photo ...acne? well I think most of the people have them or some other imperfections.

As far as being told what to do, I think we don't have abide by the general consensus and engage in lying, cheating, stealing just to be accepted or fit in, and maybe I'm too stubborn but I honestly couldn't care less what others think of me or my ways. It's their problem, and so it's with those who dare to speak like that to you. Their opinion doesn't matter since why should you care what they think of you, if they don't do the same? And what do they have on their side besides share number? it means nothing!

I feel out of time as well, but I definitely hope people like you won't become extinct...in fact this world needs more nice people like yourself to outnumber the flood sociopathic alphas of both genders.

congenital in its broader sense means someone you could relate to.

you are just as available as they are! you have a degree, you do your job when seasons permit, they are worthless trash since they can make suicidal someone as nice and kind as you are

there are other people, like on this forum who like you for who you are, maybe focus on them perhaps?

Please don't hurt yourself

Yes I would, your perspective can be unexpected and unusual, and you notice and value things that other posters would miss. I dont think Ive ever read a post of yours where you were horrid to someone, and I like people who are kind to others, especially when it would be more efficient and require less personal energy to just dismiss them with a nasty response. Also, you dont seem to sell out on your values, even if they might make you unpopular. I dunno, I think they are fairly cool qualities to have as a person.
I was not always able to communicate as I am now, but I read a lot of posts then, and words can have powerful impact on those who read but are unable to formulate a post/reply, for whatever reason.

not sure I like that you changed your avatar, now I'll have to relearn it.

oh. well I don't have a beard anymore since I got into wet shaving.
mine keep popping up if I get a job I'll have to try the other acne treatments.

I can't lie cheat and steal anyways. though life might be easier if I could.
share number?
because I'd like to date one of them,

don't think there is any possible way to outnumber them they'll the majority. I've been told I need to change if I am to survive in the world of self centered jerks. no room for nice people.

not really, its based off success and wealth. I have neither. but if everyone was valuable then no one would be, you have to have worthless people to make the others look better.

idk that there is many. seem to just upset people or get attacked.

I probably won't til I'm 30-35. I don't want to die, I just feel horrible. I don't know of any other solution to fixe or end it. since the emotion drug is way off if ever to be made, and probably couldn't' afford it anyways.

well there's no option to go back anyways. it ended for the same reason women won't date me. I don't have a well paying job.

sorry to hear that, but glad you found happiness in yourself.

question if areas always need work then won't you never be ready? ^o.o>
I did use to value myself but that was living in a fake world.

I try to be kind and respectful to everyone. I want to make people happy not sad. I don't know sometimes I wonder if life would be better if I didn't have those values.

why weren't you able to communicate ?
hugs

Ok my old avatar is back, don't want to confuse people

Please don't change....there are enough of as*holes in this world, we don't need one more

I'm sorry to see you suffer because of it though.



Yeah I'm sorry about that, it's probably easier to get some medicine here in Europe. I hope that with time and support you'll be able to feel better about yourself....time heals, at least some of us. I honestly couldn't care less now what others think of me, but I remember how horrible it used to be before, when every criticism was like stabbing with the knife.