scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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1, because I am still upset about that girl abandoning me, and also because nobody finds me attractive.

Tim

2. Something's still got me agitated, studied all of three hours for my two exams tomorrow (and yet feel oddly comfortable with it) and now have about an hour to an hour and a half left to sleep before I need to wake up to get ready to go to said exams.

I guess...about 5?

I retreated into the nightowl phase lately..I've been boycotting classes for more than a week now...The anticipation for the results for job application is stopping me from functioning...but this morning, I'll try not to go to bed, take a long bath to perk myself up and go to class...no matter what! I also have a homework to turn in today....Arghhhhhh!! !! !

5 for the number of hours before I have to wake up. Hmm...better get to sleep.

I feel like I get isolated, once in a while, even when I have friends, and family not far away.I am still upset, from seeing that "doctor, " in eugene,Oregon, (I live in a part of Oregon,)who screamed at me right during our appointment,and acted so wierd,and was so paranoid.She was the worst therapist I had ever encountered,so I am still kinda shakey. Eugene is a pretty big city now, a bout the 3rd largest in Oregon,so I would expect them to have more experts there,but this popular new doctor was really strange.

ermm... i don't know...my teacher handed back our essays a few days ago and she always add little comments at the end of the paper. well, she wrote that i was an excellent writer, god given gift, send an essay to our school's literary magazine ect. ect. i asked her about her comments today after everyone had slowly dragged themselves out of class and she interrupted me before i could even finished speaking. she went on and on about how have a god given gift and how i should use this skill and how i don't seem to credit myself enough. waaaaay too many things to take down out once, so i kept trying to tell her bye, but some she just kept talking and talking...all i keep thinking about is my future and will i win or lose? sigh...i don't know my mood right now really.

oh, yeah and today, in english, we read henry david thoreau. he was naturalist and loved going off in solitude to find himself...right when we started to read his biography i felt like they were reading about my own experiences. how he didn't give into conformity and found solitude a great thinking space. everyone else in the class thought he was "crazy", "weird", and "boring". well, actually one kid thought he was persistent. anyway, i loved his writing about an ant wars, birds, and stuff.

you know what? now that i look back at the series of events today, i've had an innovative day...i find a book, the only book they had, on the Star Wars plan. then in math class i talked to someone who i haven't really talked to in a while.

i'll take an 8 to go please

2. Odd. Disconnected.

8. Peaceful and happy. School was easy today (I actually did all my homework, gasp upon gasp), the week is almost over, and my guitar lesson was pretty fun, even if the skin is quite literally falling off my fingers. Plus, I learned how to play a few fun songs and found a few new bands. Expansion for my music is always a plus.

I thought you were mocking the fact that I want to kill myself, when you said in the bizzare thread that I attempted suicide cause Hale_Bopp was mad at me.

10. I've been for a walk at Derby Reach with some friends from my clubhouse. After that, I went to Chapters with another group of friends from the same place that I go to. I have Toastmasters, this evening and my role for tonight will be Gramarian. I'll be going out to Andrea's Family Restaurant for the $10 steak special.

7. I have an appointment with SSI people tomorrow which should make me nervous, but WP is full of wonderful or interesting stuff tonight.

6.28... stomach hurts... but other than that no problems.