Okay [company whose name I am legally not allowed to say], I have f***ing had it with you. You hire me and then give me zero information about what my job actually is, I hear nothing from you until "you're starting in two days". I come into work completely unprepared for whatever it is I'm going to do, then discover that I can't do anything because your computers are thirty years old, no one knows why they won't let me in, and IT is apparently dysfunctional and never helps anyone. You tell me to just hang around until it's time to leave. So I spend two weeks going to work every day and spending the whole day staring at my phone because you can't give me any actual work to do. On the third week you tell me you can finally start training me, leaving out that the training is only two hours a day, leaving me six more hours, again, with nothing to do. Clearly hiring me was a waste of your money since you're paying me to do nothing, and working for you is a waste of my time since I'm doing nothing and it's not like I really need this money since I'm living with my parents and eating their food.
Then two nights in a row I sleep like absolute s**t (hmm I wonder why? Maybe because you're legally required to accommodate my autism but somehow not to accommodate my natural sleep habits, even though those are no more my fault than my autism and cause me a hundred times as much difficulty. Society discriminates against night owls and somehow no one but me seems to care, even though if I could work later in the day it would be better for both of us--I would be happier AND get more done ... not that you'll let me do any work anyway. After two and a half weeks forced into unnatural sleep hours, of course my sleep schedule is completely derailed and I'm going to fall asleep at work.) So yesterday I almost fell asleep in the lab and my boss had to wake me up--and I'm sure she wasn't happy about that, but that's not an excuse for her to be a jerk to me all the time. She talks about my generation like I'm not one of them, that we're all addicted to our phones (which is our parents' and teachers' fault for not being more strict about phones--do you really expect 14-year-olds to make smart choices!?) and that we don't want to work (which EVERY generation has said about the next one since the beginning of time). Sometimes she tells me things she's told me a thousand times before as if I was too stupid to remember them, and other times she won't tell me anything because she told me every step of this incredibly long and tedious process yesterday so she expects me to have an eidetic memory and be able to do it all myself now.
So I almost fell asleep at work yesterday, and now I have slept maybe four hours in two nights. My dad will tell me to drink coffee but coffee has no effect on me, but he won't believe that because he thinks he knows better than everyone else. My mom will tell me to go to bed even earlier even though she should know better because I inherited my sleep issues from her and she has complained about the exact same things not working. I used to be able to go through a day like normal with no sleep, but I can't do that anymore. When I sleep four hours in two nights I cannot even be around people for two minutes without yelling at them, and I definitely should not be handling toxic chemicals. So I try to call in sick because I can't work while literally falling asleep, which my mom objects to even though she's done the exact same thing in the past. But no, you can't make it easy to call in sick. I could be in the hospital right now and you'd still make me go through the same damn process. Because all employees are supposed to have their boss's phone number--and on Monday my boss said she'd give me her number, but she never did. I google the number for your company and no one answers. By utter luck my mom happens to work for you as well, but in a different department so she doesn't have my boss's number. And she's not at work today because she's getting a colonoscopy in two hours--so it's the worst possible time for her to have to deal with this bulls**t. She texts her boss and finally manages to get the message through, twenty minutes after I was supposed to arrive at work. If I, like most people you hire, didn't have a parent who works for you, I would have given up on trying to call you, gone back to bed, and been fired.
After all of this I must be out of my f***ing mind to keep working for you, but for some reason I'll be back tomorrow as if nothing happened.
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Diagnosed ASD/ADHD age 5. Finally understood that age 17.
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03 Jun 2024, 4:44 pm
it's s**t
