-10.
I have spent over 2 hours unable to tear myself away from mirror, a total, and utter compulsion, as if my whole life depended on if my butt looks fat or not.
So, I was crying non stop yet I couldn't stop.
I have had to throw the mirror out of the window and have some alcohol as I just couldn't stop. I could not stop.
And I am thinking it will be better to end my life than carry on like this, I cannot carry on like this, it is killing me,. I am exhausted and I am worthless unless I look small and thin and am light.
~Worthless.