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MissConstrue
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13 Mar 2008, 4:37 am

3 can't seem to sleep. I'm having bad thoughts racing in my head. I'm also feeling depressed and isolated. That's not unusual though.



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13 Mar 2008, 7:33 am

MissConstrue wrote:
3 can't seem to sleep. I'm having bad thoughts racing in my head. I'm also feeling depressed and isolated. That's not unusual though.

I understand that feeling :( I get that all too often. Have you tried Melatonin? If you take it an hour before bed (without much light stimulation), it helps you fall asleep quicker (not so much time for those racing thoughts).

How was your visit with your friend?

I'm around a 6 today - finally a good mood!



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13 Mar 2008, 7:35 am

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-3. I feel like sh** for overreacting about something, but was it overreacting? I'm so confused. I keep getting this image in my head of the cops here with tranquilizer guns and taser batons out and ready to use, "for my own safety". I can see my mother dragging me back to Canada escorted by the cops and getting a court order to have me locked up and evaluated. Or rather, given the diagnosis of autism and not understanding danger because of it and having me given to her as her property, as an adult under her custody.


I can see myself in the Judge Rotenberg Center, trying to kill the staff member following me around and watching my every move with the activator for the shocker they use on me when I'm "bad" clipped onto her belt. I can see her zapping me 30 times and then I can see myself trying to kill myself and them zapping me 27 times. For my own good. For the greater good.


None of this has happened to me, but there's a first time for everything.
I'm sure that's not going to happen...I hope not anyways!! ! (Hey, now I'm starting to worry about being tasered by the police! Thanks a lot :P)



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13 Mar 2008, 8:00 am

Seven, I can feel a rush of energy trying to come on....not sure whether to feel the rush, or try to fight it so I don't crash out this weekend.



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13 Mar 2008, 9:00 am

MissConstrue wrote:
3 can't seem to sleep. I'm having bad thoughts racing in my head. I'm also feeling depressed and isolated. That's not unusual though.


That was me just last night as well. It almost felt like I was having a panic attack of sorts and I was going insane. As for the reason... well, that's the bad thing. I can't even pinpoint the reason why it was happening. Probably stress over girl problems, and believe it or not, I actually kind of want classes to start back now. I've been making amazing progress with both girls and new NA friends. Now, I'm finding myself reverting back to my older habits sitting my ass in front of the computer for 8 hours a day and working out every now and then. I think I'll ultimately be fine, but I guess I'm having some withdrawals from my university lifestyle, and a situation with another female is stressing me out as well.

-10 Last Night
+3 Now... I feel a lil better.



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13 Mar 2008, 4:40 pm

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Really drowsy, even though my med's dosage has been lessened almost by half. Really weird.


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13 Mar 2008, 4:55 pm

-5.

I hate topshop... I only just got into a uk size 10 there...what is it with these places? I am bordering on underweight yet... ?

I feel... tired and worried.



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13 Mar 2008, 10:34 pm

+5

Someone did something that I didn't find good, and I gave her my "angry" face, which apparently is much more pissed off and severe looking than I had assumed. Her response was amusing. :) It's the little things in life you need to enjoy.


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13 Mar 2008, 11:43 pm

8 I can feel frantic energy trying to step in. Oh, and a woman who is habitually mean to me at work had to leave tonight. She was projectile vomiting and soiled her pants as well.



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14 Mar 2008, 3:00 am

1 I make a bad friend.



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14 Mar 2008, 6:14 am

2. I'm a burden and an annoyance and a fair-weather friend.



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14 Mar 2008, 10:58 am

-10

Yesterday, I got into a fight with a girl I was infatuated with yesterday, and while it may have been the right thing to do to stand up for myself, it hurt doing it.

Unfortunately, that doesn't mean a damn thing now, as someone that I played Basketball with in High School shot and killed himself last night. He was depressed and high on Crack. My mind is chaotic and scattered with emotions varying from anger to despair. Nothing feels right anymore.



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14 Mar 2008, 11:45 am

Aw crap, Drakeman, you can talk to me if you want, for what it's worth.


-2. I'm embarrassed about how I know how to be nice to people online but not so much in real life.



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14 Mar 2008, 4:02 pm

0.

I met someone from wp locally which was a nice change and it is always nice to have some company, especially someone I don't feel totally different from.

On the other hand, I am upset that in a store I fit 4 pairs of size uk 10s in a shop renowned for small sizes, but one pair wouldn't even do up round my hips.



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14 Mar 2008, 4:14 pm

10

Im always happy. Its great to be me. I don't understand how someone CANT be happy :)



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14 Mar 2008, 4:44 pm

11 b/c I want to be more happier than Kalister is. :twisted: