scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Yeah, that's exactly what I meant only you explained it better. I feel like I've personally put a lot into being able to empathize from an intellectual point of view, which is why I find it rather silly when I see some people claim "well, I can't understand other people emotionally because of my disorder." Obviously many of us have already found a way to relate.

Zero.

An upgrade.

-10.

It is becoming so tempting to kill myself just so I can prove I am not too cowardly to do it.
Just to show I am not all talk and to stop these f*****g accusations of my being too gutless to die.

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Who would be dumb enough to accuse someone of being gutless enough to die? I don't even think that's possible, dying is the one thing guaranteed that anyone can do aside from farting, breathing and certain other basic bodily functions. Just try to ignore that s**t.

Not to point out the obvious, but I will; since it's a spectrum and all, we all have various levels of impairment in certain areas, some can empathize to too great an extent, some have none at all.

For example, take me: I don't care if everyone but two people died two seconds ago, I have a total disconnection from others that I don't care for (yes, this means you, the site owner, my sister, etcetera). The thing is, whilst it sounds "mean", I never intend to harm anyone, I just feel nothing to all of humanity; look up "autism", and you'll find people who're similar to me.

Then on the other end, you have some who cannot stop themselves from feeling too much empathetic feeling, and they can barely stand in the presence of people for they feel their pain too much. This in my experience, is rarer than the other aforementioned "extreme".

Nonverbal to verbal is the same way (and no matter how verbal an "aspie" is, they'll have a difference to normal people).

Just because one can see how something works, doesn't mean they can make it work; whether they care for making it work or not is beside the point.

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Tonight my husband and I were chatting before bed, and I was sort of chuckling over some of my childhood behaviors. For a few minutes my husband said nothing, then promptly announced that I had "destroyed" our son, who is six and has autism. "You gave it to him," he whined in his best, "Why me, Lord?" voice. "Why'd you want to have a kid if you knew you were like this?" Thing is, I didn't know I was "like" anything, other than ADHD (which my spouse knew), at the time. I guess if someone had cornered me and started asking about my childhood the fact that I was strange might have come up, but at the time I attributed everything to ADHD. It wasn't until my son was diagnosed that I began to re-examine my childhood. Still, my husband kept glearing at me, wearing his nastiest you-ruined-everything face.

So, it's 1:40am and I should be asleep but I'm too pissed to lie anywhere near the p***k. Besides, the sound of his nasally, snort-y breathing wigs me out even on a good day.

-10

I'm a freak, and I'm a loser. If I disappeared from the face of the earth, nobody would notice.

1st thought that came to mind: What a bastard! God aid you both...
2nd thought that came to mind: Maybe the stress of life got to him.
3rd thought that came to mind: Talk to him the moment he wakes up. Be there when he's awake, and discuss how that kind of attitude is not going to help anyone, especially not your affected son. You made half of your son. He made the other half. There's also the generally held statistic that autism is 4 times more prevalent in males than in females (which I despise, as I'm a female Aspie and I hear all of this whining about autism being a boy's syndrome). Bring up the fact that it could have been the combination of his Y chromosome. It takes two...



Well, welcome to the freak show. If it makes you feel any better, we're in a freak circus and I have the cage next to yours.

As for the day, I'm feeling a 4. I want to find my apartment keys in this world of instant gratification (and instant fines...)

I got ostracized on another Aspie forum, basically for being a Christian.

Tim, what has happened in the last 16 hours?
You were a +10.

I would notice!! !

If I was in that situation, I'd take a little pride in how I've tried to be open-minded about religions in general. I'd also have to remember to accept the fact that many that spit in Christianity's direction are close-minded or are teenagers that are reactionary to the beliefs of their parents. (ends completely assumed statement)

High-five for being Christian, btw. I'm of the Mormon sect, along with a lot of Buddhist beliefs. Yourself?

Damn, another one that Autism vaporized with its laser of death.

I would miss a fellow Christian Texan's near-constant posts. You're a voice I can discern in this forum.

XD
That just raised my scale to a 6.

O, that answers the question then.

I didn't know you were a christian, and I appreciate many of your posts. I have a rather "fluid " spirituality, if you could call it that.

I just try to respect another's point of view, as long as they aren't outright offensive. eg racist. What I'm trying to say (not very well) is that I would not (personally) consider someone's religion as a reason to ostrasise them. Their attitudes and individual beliefs might be though.

Maybe it was just a misunderstanding, but I don't know.

I'm a Lutheran.