dsfx wrote:
hello, i have had anxiety/panic attacks for many years now. but it seems every time i try to get away from my parents i can't. they kicked me out with the help of police in the middle of the night(accusing me of being a threat to them) and now they all deny it or say they made a mistake(wow what a mistake!! !!) but i have been through so much and now I was living in a crappy apartment but still. and then my mom comes over and she starts crying(what the f****! !! !! !!) my younger brothers and my mom sided with my dad(when he was telling the cops about arguements and everything) and now they come here crying and everything and this is basically ruining my life and worsening my condition by 1000x.
recently i just fell for my mom's ploys again and went back home as she always comes crying(not just crying but just hysterical like oh my god im the worst person.. making me guilty and telling me to go home with her) and when I tell her so that she can call the cops again she acts like a victim like oh you are gonna bring that again?!?!?
anyways long story short i went back home and the tension from the past worsened my agoraphobia/panic/anxiety and now i just dont get panic attacks.. just walking outside people look at me like there is something horribly wrong with me. i cant control them anymore!! i have tried everything and it is getting worse... i cant even go to the doctor now because it is basically in a very bad state and I don't know wha tis going on or how to control it. it is extremely stressful and im seriously contemplating suicide!! ! i mean really i dont know how much of this i can take anymore. i also dont know how to commit suicide. please help!! ! has anyone gone through this kind of panic attacks where you endlessly get looks everywhere like something is wrong!! i dont think so!! ! i dont know hwat to do!! please help
I think you should stay at your apartment and not move back home.
Also just remember that people cant see what is going on in your head so if they are looking at you perhaps its for another reason.
I know when I'm worried I feel like everyone is staring at me when really they aren't, I just feel like they are.
This might not be the same for you but only you would be able to tell.
I called the cops on my dad once. The cops took both our statements. I made sure to tell the cops I had aspergers. They did not know what it was so I explained it to them.
Its important when there is a domestic dispute that the cops are well informed. They are there to protect and serve. If you feel you are in danger in your parents house tell the cops that too. Have examples of abuse ready in your head to tell them about.
I told the cops about the bullet holes in the wall where my dad shot at a guy. This was not only a good example but proof if needed.
My dad kicked me out after that but now he offered to let me move back in but I wont because I wont subject myself to that kind of life anymore.
Your mother is manipulating you. Don't listen to her YOU DESERVE BETTER! don't let them ruin your life.
From what your describing its sounds like abuse. mental and emotional abuse. Parents shouldn't do that to there kids.
There is free therapy and resources for abuse victims. Your entitled to that .
I hope your life gets better.
Just me.
28 Jun 2009, 5:15 pm
