Everything is too much

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I am not coping very well, but the worst part is that I don't know how to explain it.
The best way I can of describing it is by saying that it feels like my stomach and lungs and all my insides hurt, but it's not physical, it's my emotions.
I don't understand them all, and I don't know how to explain them, so they keep getting worse.
I want to go and buy sellotape and wrap it round all of me, because I'm scared I'm going to fracture in to a million pieces.

Not good that you are struggling. I don't think I've talked much with you.

I can't really say I know what your'e going through. It could be linked with depression or anxiety. Are there any particular things that have got you in a fix of late? Sometimes when we allow certain issues to take over our lives it can be difficult to feel 'normal' again...

I hope for you all the best, and good luck in this trying time of yours.

A few things.

1) My brother has been in and out of hospital since christmas as he kept trying to kill himself.
2) I failed a teaching placement, so all my classmates graduated and I didn't (apparently I've got to wait to find out if they will offer me a second chance or not).
3) I am going to Italy with my parents at the end of July, but apart from that I don't have anything written in my diary. There is absolutely no structure to my life, and my future is uncertain.
4) I have been trying to lose weight, but now am scared to eat too much.
5) I was sacked from my singing group and then took time off church for a few months. I've gone back a few times lately and realised that nobody really cares if I'm there or not.
6) I have no friends.
7) I'm pretty sure I have Aspergers, but the NHS will not diagnose me as I'm over 14. I think it's partly why I failed the aforementioned placement, and I just want to know.

I think that's it.

Brother must be more suicidal than me. Can be like me, give up on work and study the rest of your life. No structure to my life either, as you can see I'm up at 3am. What church did you go to? Yes I've heard nightmares about the British health system, even worse than here

My future is pretty much uncertain as well, and I've got no friends either (so I can relate to that).

As for the other things, well I'm sure they are proving to be difficult to get to terms with or to overcome. Sometimes just having someone to talk to can help. Maybe you should try to talk to a psychologist, it's helped me out a bit. And even if you don't have 'friends' try to enjoy the time you spend with your family... it does help. I hope I've been of some assistance.

I know how your feeling. Life has gotten too much for me! Just hang in there and go talk to someone who can help you get through. It's hard asking for help I know.

I think I understand kind of what you mean. I have a feeling inside that is kind of nauseous and I like that there is a barrier that stops me being able to connect to and understand my own emotions. I think it might be related to not being able to identify with emotions that describe the feelings of the majority. Like trying to measure weight in degrees celcius. And then that is frustrating as I can't communicate what I feel because I don't know what I feel really. I also have recently lost structure in my life because I have finished part of school and now I feel like I am in a transistional period where I don't know what is going to happen. Sometimes I think I can't believe I have to plod through another few decades of life. I don't know how to help because I haven't gotten over it yet. I wish I could I think it may be related to a period of extended dissocialisation. I don't know. Sorry about just ranting there. My brother also had similar problems to you in trying to get diagnosed as an adult. He saw a psychologist who told him it was very likely that he was autistic and that he had enough traits for a diagnosis but that he was at an age where there was just no help available to him so a diagnosiswouldn't change anything. Must be something about Birmingham . . .

Hi, Alycat. That hurting feeling inside sounds like extreme anxiety. Some people bottle up their feelings until they develop physical symptoms- psychologists call them somatic symptoms. It sounds like you have plenty of things to be anxious about at the moment- I'm so sorry. Is there someone you're close to, perhaps a parent, who can give you reassurance (and a big hug) and help you talk about how you're feeling? Please confide in someone- it will help. Best wishes, Jenny