I am dying inside

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my obsessions no longer interest me, I cant even chat online, let alone IRL to any good level, i sleep all of the time I am getting depressed that noone else feels like spinning until they fall, or pretending to be dinosaurs, of vietcong in the rain I feel like I will never get enjoyment from boobie trapping my locker, or just being wierd with my best friend. everyone around me is growing up, why WHY?

oh yeeah I can realate, its a painful phase in your life to see others drifting away from you in growing up....I know its a hard feeling but eventually you will get over it. But what to do in the meantime when waiting for that eventually....its not so much to do than find yourself a new obsession. That can thrill you up for a while....Sorry that I dont have any good suggestions. Hope you will be in better moood soon!

Pretend you're the sole survivor on a deep space mission? Critical information must be personally relayed to Aspie colony to protect itself against plot of covert NT operations...

Read David Brin... it'll at least pass the time.

I sleep alot through those kind of transitions, too.

You might want to see a dr to see if you have clinical depression or bipolar disorder. I'm bipolar and I relate to what you're saying.

well... I woke up this morning, and I felt a lot better, the first time in a long time. it had a lot to do with accepting that I wasnt obligated to be something I am not which is NT. and I dont think I am bipolar, because all of my problems seem to stemm from autism. I have always been a constant, and happy "although wierd" person. I have always been tested a lot, and bipolar was ruled out quickly. I only get to what would be manic, or depressive during a meltdown, and my constancy is yet another sign of aspergers.

do you think maybe you can relate because of what we are not, instead of what we are?

Glad you're feeling better.

Glad you're doing better. The autism spectrum is confusing and is completely random and different for reach person. Different things are amplified and suppressed all over the place. A person can be completely "normal" in one area, yet show heavy autistic traits in another area. It's hard to understand, even for those who are on it.

well the problem is that the people around me dont realise that
it is hard without the understanding of others

Unfortunately, the understanding of others can't be counted on, no matter how well intentioned they may be.

It's a process of figuring out what you need, and how you need to say it so they can at least begin to get it.

Just like we can't read them, they can't really read us. So we each need to work on the verbal clarity and kindness.

And that doesn't mean it's not exhausting... it is. Just hang in there and wait for the tiredness to pass, and go on.

That part's the same for everyone, it's just what wears us out that is different.

well I would have to agree, and I think I have a way for him to understand.
I am going to invite an aspie from karate over to swim at my house, and maybe my dad will se how similar we are and begin to understand it

Does your dad accept that the other boy is an Aspie? Otherwise, it may not work.
But at least you'll have fun swimming.
What might work (if this doesn't) is if the two of you swimmers become close enough that your dad meets his dad and they hit it off... the ol' guy-to-guy thing.

Do you like your friend's dad?

my friend's dad is a vietnam vet, and my dad is ultra republican, so.. they will either do really well, or.... not. and im pretty shure that my dad will get it if I do this
about the two dads, I will do jacob a favor too, because his dad gets it, but doesnt always understand. but I would give anything for my dad to at least try to like his dad
and it would be doing him a favor by maybe getting them both closer to getting it
BTW... this kid is really cool, and we share interests... but as you have probably expirienced, he is 3, i think three years younger "we aspies tend to mature more slowly so we are at about the same level"
is this going to be a problem with us being friends, or will the age difference make it harder for my dad to relate me to him as far as behavior?

I don't know how old you are?
If you put in your B-day, the program calculates your age and posts it, like mine (51 years old)

I don't know how it will affect how your dad relates the two of you, but it's worth a try.

I'm going away for a few days, so I won't be posting after tonight. I hope you are able to make a little progress, just remember... it probably won't happen overnight. Try to be patient.

A locker is an upright standing chest to put things in

Dillan, I`m also the type of person that will never grow up. If you asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I wopuld say "I will never grow up." And my friend MADDuck too; he`s a good person to talk to about that. Maybe the three of us can get together and do immature things! You seem to like pranks; I like them too. I also love acting; I`ll play a villager in your Vietnam games and pretend I was shot and am dying, or am running from the firing squad or something.

yes im immature, and i dont find that an offensive term, except that it entails being alone most of the time. it seems like im alwats sneeking around by myself blowing up crabapples with firecrackers, and being a dinosaur, and chasing my dog as prey
its good im not the only one