Why am I so explosive? I don't think this is an ASD trait...

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It's like some of my emotional "palette" is missing...To use a visual metaphor, imagine taking away most of the colours from the colour spectrum and replacing them with red. Now translate that to someone's emotional state, where red = explosive rage.

Any little thing can induce this in me. I just react like a rabid wolf, I literally want to pound someone into the floor. Why?

I'm in the same position as you. It is sort of an ASD thing, because we have trouble controlling our emotions expecially anger or frustration. That's the case with me atleast, I have the emotional control of a stroppy 12 year old.

So it is an ASD trait. I did not know that...

Same here.

I sometimes frighten myself with the height of my rages.

It's not normal to want to knock someone down, hold them still and crudely kill them just using my canine teeth...

ha I know what you mean. For some reason even when my mum sings around the house it makes me want to destroy the universe (well, not the universe but you get my drift).

I think maybe it's a result of not being able to properly verbalize. If, when you try to calm down and be rational, you can't express yourself well enough for it to help, it makes it pretty much impossible to continue to make that effort, because you associate any anger/frustration with continued misunderstanding and escalation of the situation, so the frustration of not being able to make yourself understood compounds whatever the other issue that bothers you is. (does that make sense?)

So on top of the tendency to have meltdowns, you're pretty much conditioned to explode like that.

But if you feel the rage, do you ever do any damage with it? Or have you come up with a way of calmng down or whatever? My son and I are aspies, but I don't feel rages of anger. At least they aren't expressed as rages. I might cry or talk to myself. But he gets pretty angry and screams and pounds the wall sometimes. I worry that he will break stuff and he's bigger than me now.

have struggled with it off and on. meltdowns not as bad as they used to be--and fewer and farther in between. i think it does change with age.

think some of it has to do with difficulty expressing things in-the-moment (or even identifying what they are, for that matter.) things gradually build, and something relatively "small" can trigger it off.

i think it's pretty common--though probably not universal.

Definitely.

Or when you do express it in the moment, people shrug you off, to keep the peace...