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i think i might be depressed but i cant tell, occasianly i would be very tired and sad, then i would be cheerie and happy, then back to sad, iv also been thinking about suicide, and what affects it would have

how can i tell if i am depressed?

I would certainly say that you have some of the signs of depression. Medically, some of the signs of depression include low self-esteem, self-neglect, and lost of interest in things you once enjoyed.

I hope this helps!

A diagnosis of clinical depression is best done by a professional who can see you in person. It sounds like you might want to go see someone if you have the resources to do so -- in fact, it sounds like you should go see someone whether or not you have the resources on your own. In most areas, there is financial help available for people in need.

On its own, thinking about suicide and pondering the possibilities is not necessarily dangerous, IMO. But with the "tired and sad," it gets to be a bit more sinister. From the age of 7 until about two years ago, I actively wanted to die. Not wanted "to have never been born," but wanted to die. I'm not dead, I'm still here, and for the most part I'm reasonably ok with that. I guess I said that last bit to tell you that things can get better.

The thing I'm wondering about is how long this has been going on for you. Is this a new thing? A pattern you haven't seen before?

im getting worried, i think its getting worse, no matter what happens i cant stay happy, and the... "suicidel thoughts" have been happening more, just today i wanted to jump off of a bridge that i was walking on.

also, im afraid to tell my parents, i can speak to some of my friends but i find it nerv racking to say it to my mum or dad,

I know what you mean friend, I'd stick with it and try to do as many new things out as you can, breaking up your routine can do wonders for kickstarting your endorphins. If all else fails, see a psych for some help on it all.

I wouldn't worry too much about telling your parents, they're more likely to blame themselves then you and will do all they can to help.

About the bridge- it also sucks to be on a plane. Takes all my willpower not to rip open that emergency release door and be sucked out.

One thing I've found that helps when I'm really suicidal is to "do the next right thing." I don't have to solve all my problems at once, or worry about the rest of my life -- I just need to make the next right choice and do the next right thing. Maybe that means walking across the rest of the bridge instead of jumping off it. maybe it means going to the park and skipping rocks in the ocean instead of going and getting drunk. There are good choices. Make them.

Meanwhile, you two... find some help. Don't wait until you get tossed into the emergency room to ask for help.

It could be a bipolar depression. I wiil say it's better for you to consulting.