I just received a 3-days to pay or vacate notice and practically collapsed right there on the porch. We were really counting on the month filing a complaint with the housing department usually buys you to find a new place (this place has never met code, but fear of having to stand up in court kept me from filing the complaint for a long time, stupid of me I know). Once the complaint goes through all the way and the landlord is cited, the eviction will be cleared from our record, but until then I don't know if anyone will rent to us.
I'm freaking out because we may have to move in with my mother, who hates the fact that I'm an aspie. She sees me as a complete embarrassment and probably views my son the same way.
I feel like I'm in this never ending cycle of losing everything I work for. I've had to put college on hold (maybe permanently) because I lost my grant due to grades during the semester I was hospitalized for postpartum and didn't find out that the school would grant leniency until it was too late to file an appeal. I have this massive pile of medical debt from before my "good job" with insurance that I can't take care of because that "good job" has had me on furlough so often during this recession. Unemployment covers basic living expenses but not debts on top of them. Usually I have no problem finding extra work during the slow season (I have three jobs all together, but all of them are seasonal and there is a gap of unemployment in the summer).
Sorry about the rant. I just feel so overwhelmed at the moment, and the landlord's parting shot that crying wouldn't make him take the paper back has kind of pushed me past my limits.
20 Aug 2009, 9:44 pm
I really don't know how I'd get by without him.
