meltdown - paranoia time

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I don't know if you'll believe me. I had a meltdown talking on the phone with the Deliveries Lady at the pharmacy. I've been rage'y for awhile and when she cut me off (as usual) I blew. So she put me on hold forever. I ended up walking over to pharmacy. As I approached the counter all the cashiers went away. There was one directly in front of me, behind a table, and she said, "I'm calling security now." And then followed three separate incidents of serving others in front of me even though I was ahead of them. I said nothing. Finally somebody sold me my stuff. On the way out, I passed a security guard with a gun.

Have you ever been through anything similar?

Spooky. No. The world is odd. Sometimes anger-inducing. But APPARENTLY(And I'm having problems with this) Part of being adult is being arrogant enough to just roll over and take it because "it's their problem not yours"...well it isn't, but I agree that NOT making a fuss is the best way to avoid yet MORE problems..

But it is fun sometimes. When you're not in too much of a serious situation, anyway, to call someone on their *CENSORED EXPLICITS that will burn your EYES.

Not in yours, though.

One time I remember having such a bad panic attack walking back from the park with my dog that I was convinced everyone was looking at me. (They probably were.) But I got it in my head that not only were they looking at me, thinking "what's wrong with that weirdo", I thought they were looking at me, and planning on getting me arrested and committed. Then I had a whole story in my head about how I would end up in an institution for the rest of my life, my son would be taken from his school by social workers, he'd end up in care, I'd never see him again, and he'd think it was my fault.

To be fair, I'd been attacked in that park a few days earlier, and this was my first visit back to it.