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I cant go on anymore. I want to kill myself. I thought getting away for a day would help but its only making it worse. All I do is cry. I'm alone and scared

How you are feeling at this moment will pass. In your perception, it may not seem so, but it will...I am sure that how you are feeling right now is not what you want the final sensation of being alive to be. Maybe you are having a meltdown..I frequently feel like I want to die when I am having a meltdown..but then it passes....At least with life, there are options..with death, there are no options..only death...surely that is not truely what you want...

I lost an ASish cousin to suicide...and it was very sad..I was never close to him, because I am not close to many of my relatives, but I think about him every time I card someone who is now the age he would have been. They are all grown up...he never gave himself that chance...life will give you a series of light and dark places..they are not all dark...even the dark places have more merit than complete nothingness...What does not kill you will make you stronger...and also you are very young...I have felt suicidal lots of times when I was young, and now I am in my mid-30's and glad I didn't do it.

I have gone for months feeling a similar way in the past too...especially when I was in my early 20's...I got on antidepressants...and all that did was convince me to snap out of it on my own accord so that I did not have to take lousy antidepressants...
Have you sought any help for how you are feeling?

He needs to be hospitalized-I hope someone nearby can help him.

He posted a suicide note on his blog and some asshat over there is encouraging him. This enrages me.

Please don't do it. Poopylungstuffing said it best--the pain will pass. Please hang in there. Find someone or something that you love or care about-- a person, a pet, a song, and cling to it. Stay on this site, and people will help you. Please don't do it.

Dont give up, Zach. You never know how things will turn out in the future. You seem quite young, I know in my early 20s it seemed as if things would always be as they were but as I got older I saw that things could change and get better. Keep posting here...

Zach,

The future is unwritten - don't close the book on it.

You do need to seek help though - someone sensible who can sort this mess out for you. It's too big for a you now.

I'm ok spent all night talking to ari and kates neice.

I'm in hiding for a while because im scared until things work out

I'm happy you made it another day. It sounds like from your site you might be willing to get some professional help. I hope so, this world needs all the big hearts it can get. Thank you Ari and Molly for being there.

Zach,

I know you're very religious and that the foundation of your religion is faith. Is it too much to ask that you have faith in God to look after you. He will sort things out or he will give you choices to make which will lead you to sort it out. He's not going to give up on you - so stay calm and don't give up on him.

Wait for the signs. God doesn't often use burning bushes to communicate. He's more likely to have someone talk to you or make you an offer. Sometimes the biggest help comes from the most unexpected of places.

I'm glad you're ok for now.