06 Nov 2009, 9:20 am
Hey I just woke up in tears!! !! I had a weird dream involving a friend. Every time I'd open my eyes to look at the clock I'd fall back to sleep with her in a dream again. 2 parts I remember 1 I shot her and killed her (DON'T KNOW WHY!) and 2) It was her Birthday and I didn't buy her a gift. ODD dreams!
Obviously many of you have heard my College issue but this year that friend started College which for me is really depressing since I LOVED College so much!! !! !! ! (Come on I had a meltdown when I had to miss a day of class for a doctor check up!! !) (Imagine the shattered pieces I'm in now from ALL THIS!) Not to mention I think of what I'd do if I went back to College EVERYDAY and talk to myself about it! (Ya I'm weird!) It haunts me EVERYDAY!
I put on a mask and fake happiness but I KNOW true happiness was when I was back in College involved in my now knowing special interest of Psychology (You can only use Google/Wiki/a psychology podcast) to entertain your interest for so long!! !! !! ! Right now in life I need a job and more money flow but this dream was haunting!! !! !! and I'm going to think of it ALL DAY!! !! !! !! !! ! (The days where I talk to myself I try to smile etc. and be happy but I'm hurting deep down.) Oh and BTW the only Psychological help I've gotten is oh you're depressed take a pill or just get over your issues (Sadly therapy doesn't want to hear about something that happen nearly 5 YEARS AGO AS OF FEB!! 
07 Nov 2009, 1:20 am
Obviously many of you have heard my College issue but this year that friend started College which for me is really depressing since I LOVED College so much!! !! !! ! (Come on I had a meltdown when I had to miss a day of class for a doctor check up!! !) (Imagine the shattered pieces I'm in now from ALL THIS!) Not to mention I think of what I'd do if I went back to College EVERYDAY and talk to myself about it! (Ya I'm weird!) It haunts me EVERYDAY!
I put on a mask and fake happiness but I KNOW true happiness was when I was back in College involved in my now knowing special interest of Psychology (You can only use Google/Wiki/a psychology podcast) to entertain your interest for so long!! !! !! ! Right now in life I need a job and more money flow but this dream was haunting!! !! !! and I'm going to think of it ALL DAY!! !! !! !! !! ! (The days where I talk to myself I try to smile etc. and be happy but I'm hurting deep down.) Oh and BTW the only Psychological help I've gotten is oh you're depressed take a pill or just get over your issues (Sadly therapy doesn't want to hear about something that happen nearly 5 YEARS AGO AS OF FEB!!
Hey Zeldapsychology,
I know how you feel lol, I was obsessed with winter 2004, and would've done anything in the world to go back there! 5 years on and I'm ok but it took me ages to get over it. Just think what specifically about college you miss so much and try to recreate it/re do it, and then it wont be a memory solely attributed to college, or you will realise it was not as fun as what you thought etc.
