horrible meltdown type reaction today
I am feeling really stressed right now and as a result I am making mistakes I don't normally do and getting panicked, After work last Friday night I was driving home and was waiting at the traffic lights some f**** threw an egg at my car causing my headlight protector to come off. I saw something drop out of the air and got a huge fright at first I thought it was birdcrap then I parked saw the dripping it got inside my headlight protectors one of them came off and I had to get re-attach it for me. Not only that it could have caused a bad accident. To top it all off a few days ago there was no trains from Werribee so I drove closer into town but didn't know the area, got completely lost was worried about getting to see my grandma on time and backed into a car in the station car-park they were parked illegally it was tough to see them fortunately no damage to them and only extremely minor to mine. Then mum was extremely abusive to me as she often is when she is tried calling me a "little sh**", telling me I dress like a tramp and wear cheap horrible clothes, am fat and ugly, can't do anything right etc etc. Today I was parking in the supermarket when all of a sudden I heard a very loud noise because of the egging incident and the fact I am extremely sensitive to loud and sudden noises I started to shake, get heart palpitations and sweat I thought someone had thrown something at my car, they had hit me or worse still I had hit them. Had this been the case I would have felt something I didn't but still got out of the car and checked the other cars and mine I clearly much to my relief hadn't hit anyone and they hadn't hit me what I think the noise in fact was, there was an unofficial shopping trolley bay behind me and someone had roughly and loudly shoved a trolley into another one causing that loud noise. I am pretty alright now but was shocked at my psychological and physiological reaction to the noise I was really sweating and panicking.
There's only so much you can process at a time. I remember a point in my life. In a 3 week period my father had died after a long illness, I was in a car accident and I chipped a tooth. Not all on the same par as far as seriousness goes but I couldn't stop shaking.
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I'm pretty sure I've read this before.....
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I'm pretty sure I've read this before.....
Actually I think I have too. I recognized it but I forgot it was a "new topic". Maybe OP wants to talk more about it but didn't think about continuing old thread. OP?
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Certain things trigger the hell out of me and having people throw things at me is one of them. Spitting on me is another. I cannot tolerate those actions and I respond quite violently, which is why, of course, people do it to me. Lots of fun, haha. Mostly this behavior was limited to school, but I'm sure if I told people about it now I'd have all sorts of people flicking things at me. So I understand your reaction to the egg. I would have surely flipped out about that too.
My father was emotionally abusive so I understand that as well. What I don't understand is why people behave this way. What in the world is wrong with live and let live?
to top it all off after a really long day at work yesterday I had a very freaky thing happen. As a result I am very I puzzled parked car near station got back to find a hand written piece of cardboard under windscreen saying "Come to Dimmeys (a small discount department store) no plate" I looked I have all the correct number plates and everything is ok. As a result I am bamboozled and given how jumpy I am anyway it was the last thing I needed.
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Next time something freaky happens, just ignore it. Sometimes we get in this frame of mind where everything just starts to seem off and we get confused and paranoid. I'm not saying you're just paranoid, it's just that it kind of snowballs when you start thinking that way. Do you know what I mean?
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Yrah I do and I am extremely jumpy right now I wouldn't go as far as to say paranoid but jumpy absolutely and yeah you are right in that frame of mind you read something into everything.
I feel very very disappointed I came out to my car today to discover it all scratched and dented I don't know how long it has been there but after a really long day at work on Tuesday I parked my car near the station and got back to find a hand written piece of cardboard under
windscreen saying "Come to Dimmeys (a small discount department store)
no plate". Thinking it meant the number plates I looked I have all the correct number plates but it is quite possible given the damage was on the passenger side (I rarely go there) that someone was pretending to write their details and put that instead. I feel upset someone would damage a car like that and take off I have only had three months.
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windscreen saying "Come to Dimmeys (a small discount department store)
no plate". Thinking it meant the number plates I looked I have all the correct number plates but it is quite possible given the damage was on the passenger side (I rarely go there) that someone was pretending to write their details and put that instead. I feel upset someone would damage a car like that and take off I have only had three months.
I was just reading some posts and saw this one, and I must answer. Maybe someone damaged your car and someone else saw them and they were trying to tell you that the were unable to get the plate number and they work at that store and were going to give you a discription of who did it. Or maybe the person who did the demage doesn't have legal number plates but they work at the store and want to take care of it without involving the police. Or maybe i am full of it and i am letting my mind run wild with possibilities that don't really exist. Wouldn't be the first time nor the last.
argh I am almost too afraid to post for the fear of looking stupid...
oh F it whats the worst that can happen
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