I find life so hard, I really hate it.
I wish I knew a solution to my difficulties, everyone thinks they can make me stop being difficult by being mean to me but it doesnt work, Im still just as crap.
I really feel so cross at the authorities that I have to interact with and their 'anti AS' ways, I will never be reconsiled or understand NT eye brow riggleing or humour or banter or wimsyness. I feel so alienated and full of hate.
Im so ful of anger at myself for always getting it wrong no matter how hard I try, I wish I did not make everything worse, all the time.