This isn't like the other times.

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so I've been at college for the last 6 months..
high school was absolute hell for me and I thought my problems/depression might be due to my environment..here i've got an alright social life and such but things have took a total down turn....it tends to go in cycles.i've become deeply depressed again and beforehand I would usually tell my parents or similar..they've started at uni and due to the stuff they had to go through due to me in high school they just tend to tell me to get over it now...and they're happy as well so I feel I cant ruin that for them...at college as well even though I've been there throughout my best friends problems(they have PTSD,manic depression etc) even though the intensity of our friendship is incredible draining on me, I'm made to feel Its wrong and bad of me to feel this way.i've given up telling people as I used to...I've also begun to take painkillers more and more.I thought these problems would disappear with my new environment but it just seems to have brought new ones and I need advice.

aw. yeah, depression comes in cycles for me, as well. college is a big change for you, as it is for everyone. completely changing your environment, habits, pictures, everything... painkillers are really bad, stop right now! they're addicting, and you can get into more trouble (with yourself) than without them! i warn you in fear of the future. it's true. but i get the emotional pain you are going through. emotional, right? you can't express yourself to your friends/family? i don't know how to do that, maybe someone on here can help, but i can recommend that maybe you can see your school's counseling center, if they have one. i am not sure if every school does, but mine does. they work pretty well, if only to give someone for you to talk to.

uni is so much better than hs in the social realm, is it not? friends are easier to come by . i know i have lost friends due to my distance and awkwardness. you can't tell them you need time alone to sort things out for a while?

Yea stop the painkillers stat dude. I support drug use in college etc more than most, but taking PKs habitually for escape purposes is pretty deep. That is bad business for sure.

What ever happened to college kids just drinking 40s and smoking grass to get loose and unwind?

college in scotland isn't exactly uni....I'm kinda at a further education college which is a place you can do senior last two years etc.
and I'm trying to stop...it is emotional pain and weird as before I was pretty open and would have talked to people about it.I'll try to find a college conselour or similar.
I sleep even a bit much for a student for the same purpose and as I'm constantly anxious/unable to relax no matter what I think that might be why i've latched onto the pills so much.
I've never done recreational drugs and wouldn't ,but have started drinking lately.