When will it end?!

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I ask myself this each day, every hour, when will it all end?!

I'm 18 years old, I've never kissed, dated, held hands, anything. I still don't know how to drive a car, I was bullied at my high school to the point where I had to drop out, I'm working on the GED, and each time I take the practice test, I fail miserably at math. Try and try again, yeah right.

In my family, I'm usually the black sheep of the flock. I usually feel ignored alot, but I'm used to that. I have always been a quiet, shy person.

I remember anytime I tried to do something nice to the girls at my old middle school, they would laugh at my attempt to be kind. I should have known better, I was always the school wierdo. Anytime I got near a girl, they would run away like I had the plague or something. The constant rumors that I was gay didn't help either.

I know, I shouldn't let the past bother me, but it does.

Overall, I feel like an all-around loser, I don't think things will get better anytime soon, and I don't know what to do.

it never ends thats the point. its up to you how you shape your world, it sucks i know. your focus is just on the wrong things. its like walking a path backwards, you already know whats their. you need to turn around and move forwards. your obviously surrounded by narrow minded people, unloving unappreciating of you. logic dictates you focus your mind and energy on getting out of there.


are you taking g.e.d. classes or you just trying to wing it on your own?

if your in classes, i suggest going to a faculty member there and asking about a test workshop. they are classes about tests, how to take them. they help. after that get that learners permit from the dmv and learn to drive, after that the sky is the limit

Well, just know that there are many of us who were once your age and were in the exact same situation.

One big difference is that there wasn't really much of an internet when I was your age, so I was really in the dark about what was going on at the time -- didn't have a way to piece together the symptoms or realize what was going on with me.

I'm also going to guess that much of the negativity you're getting from people at school is likely to do with their own brokenness -- they're probably going through some kind of family problems or abuse or self-esteem issues of their own. I know it can get emotionally painful when the routine seems to repeat itself over and over, but try to find some kind of healthy outlet for yourself (be it hiking, running, school groups or whatever) and this way you can get forget the grief that other people are causing and you can focus on activities that might benefit you more emotionally and socially.

Is there anything you do particularly well or enjoy right now? Perhaps that's something you can use to help other people, people who may be struggling in school or need encouragement in some area of their life that you're gifted at? If not right now, it may be something to consider once you've discovered that certain hobby or skill.

I'm in a similar situation, i'm 19 almost 20. I've only had a few dates that only went as far as holding hands. I'm great with basic math, like percentages, ratios, multiplication, but the more complex math I just can't understand. The other guys pretty much covered everything else, so I guess don't feel that you're the only one in that position. I just dropped out of university to go to college to get my certifications to work with computers and i'm loving it so far.

Well, I've been known to draw pretty well.

I'm not really sure how that would help me, aside from my hopes of getting a job as a cartoonist.

It never ends.

I am in my 60's yet there are times that I want to curl into a ball and yell "I want my Mommy"

When you are little you trust your parents and elders because they know everything and can protect you.

Then one day you find that you are an adult and a parent and you have children to protect and raise.

So you "suck it in" and do your best to be a roll model and protector.

Just like your parents and grandparents did before you.

Another thing is that I'm tired of living at home with my parents. I feel like every day me and my mother fight. I'd like to get out of here, but I can't drive.

It doesn't help that I can't pass a math test to save my life, like earlier this week. I don't even know why I bother trying at this.

I have zero friends to live with or talk to, and every time I have a plan, every time I expect something good to happen in my life and look forward to something good, BOOM! Something ruins it. I feel kind of like Charlie Brown trying to kick that blasted football.

It's like I'm not allowed to be happy, and as hard as I try, I don't see it getting better anytime soon.