My Rant...

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Okay,people.I am letting my guard down for right now and showing my really depressed and angry side.WARNING:LOTS of cussing.

Okay,remember when I posted that topic yesterday about how GOOD I felt?Well,I've been having flashbacks and hearing harsh voices all f****n weekend!

WHY,WHY,WHYYYYYYYYY did people have to beat me up,betray me,stab me in the back,make fun of me,abuse me,and molest me????

UGH!! !

I was so really scared that night when I was 12.That was one sick mother f****r.I wish I could kill him.I wish I could kill every god damn b***h that made me what I am today.And I am soooooo f****n sick of being nice!People just use me and take advantage of me.

I HATE MY LIFE!I WANT TO f*****g DIE!! !! !! !! !! !


-SpaceCase

:kiss: we dont want you to die your a nice cute girl .

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Here, use my tail as a scarf...it's nice and soft and warm.

There's always something else round the corner, so if you die now, you won't see it...

You have every right to be pissed. In fact, if you weren't pissed I'd be worried. You never deserved to have anything like that done to you and you don't deserve to have it plaguing you now. The only advise I can offer is to try to remember that periods of emotional crap (like where you're mired in the past or eomtional trauma) don't last forever. You'll feel better at some point and be glad you're not dead. In the meantime just take care of yourself as best you can. Feel free to vent your ass off, too.

Hey. I know the feeling. We love you here. Let it out, have a good cry, and a nice warm bubblebath. And chocolate, plenty of it. We love you here. I personally hate seeing you hurt Spacecase. You've given me heaps of support, and I suspect you've given it to others as well, and I only hope that we can give the same back to you.

You have every right to hate the mother f***er who did this to you. In a way, he killed a bit of you, and you want that bit back. The "experience" (that sounded horrendous, I'm sorry) changed you, not for the better, but for the worse, and having AS just makes things 50 billion times more extreme. But remember, we're here, and we love you just the way you are. And I'm sure your girlfriend does to. Ok?

A little venting is healthy and you have every right to be angry... by all means, let it all out!

I'll let you wear my Pearly Cap for a while, as I cheer you up.

I don't really know what to say, but I do know that when I'm reliving past memories, it helps if I can get myself angry. I think about all the reasons that the people involved were stupid, evil, horrible people who are the only ones who should die. I hope that helps.

How are you feeling now, Spacecase?

One thing you have to remember they are usually like that for some pschological reason. I used to want to kill my stepdad. My mom threw him out and he moved away to new york. She said he raped her when she cracked her pelvis. I used to want to kill him and I said if I see him I would do something too him. I feal rather sorry for the guy. He is fat bald and he drove up my mom's driveway talking about suicide. My mom said she would help him. He laughed said thankyou he drove away happy. I know rape one of my mom friends did to me. If I find him he is dead that is right dead. My mom knows this black dude after him. The guy has connections with police. He knew it was wrong he has no reason to do what he did. I herd that these guys have testosterone problem you have to take care of that your self take med if you have to there was no excuse. He was drunk he just grabbed me. My mom let him in and while we playing a game he said if I loose sexual favor . Because my mom shows me half the love she supposed to I fealt flatter that he choose me but I did not like being touched . My mom likes agitation makes good distraction for depression. It is unconscience motivation. One of her friends is bisexual and female and her other is a grump in a wheelchair. The grump does not care about hygenie he stinks like you could imagine. He is a real perve. They yell at each other he will throw her out of his call at 10;00 at night to walk home for an hour if she startes crying. He says it is ok for her and only her to call a stupid excuse for a cripple. That is the problem she has to envolve everyone in her scams even though unconsciencously motivated. I am not gay I am at aspie affection looking and made winks at fiz Why doesn't this bother me? why not embarassed because I hesitated? because of as and problably other pscho conditons I am not weak. That guy can suffer with his own problem screw him litterally. Be happy space case I h I am working on fixing them . I hope this has not happen to you, space case. Considering with have all the same disorder Its not far off.