Visualizing a shutdown?

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Yeah, it sounds a bit odd doesn't it? I've been over the past few months feeling myself going into shutdown mode again from things happening, plus memories of my life of being abused, isolating myself, not talking, feeling that I'm down in my "black well" again. Even typing this feel an effort right now. That's how I see it in my mind, I'm sinking to the bottom of a black, deep well/ hole and everything and everyone's above it in the light. It's happened to me several times in my life, and someone recently asked me to describe what I'm feeling, the image of being in the bottom of that hole is the closest I could tell them.
I know I'll get back out again as I always eventually do, scratching back up to the surface but it seems to be taking forever this time.

Anyway, do those of you who go through these shutdowns ever have a mental picture of it? What helps you get out of it?

I've always had a picture of falling down from a mountain. But after I stop at some point, I start climbing again

I've always visualized dramatic "real life" events and played them out in my mind attempting to create the most realistically tragic possibilities without much effort in terms of applicability, these scenarios then melt into something hopeful, or entertaining, or darker still, and then I completely lose track of what I was thinking about and my mind resets.