Eye contact and standing out!

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I have like five doctors right now because of all my back issues and then my Psychiatrist thrown in on top. I went to see my General Doctor today and I have told him that I have Asperger's and I know that he has a lot of patients but he does see me a lot. Anyway, he always makes issues about the fact that Im not looking at him, because he thinks Im not listening. I went to see him without my husband today because this afternoon I have to go have injections in my back and my husband has to take off work for that. Anyway, I told him today AGAIN that If I make direct eye contact with him I wont hear a word he says. It just embarrassing to have to tell people constantly that I have Asperger's and I AM listening. They also tell me to calm down because I twist my fingers and I also rock and chew my lip.....this IS what calms me.
I guess Im just stressed right now but Im tired of people constantly pointing out my "symptoms" and me having to explain....The only person I dont have to explain it to is my Psych and that is because thats why I see him.
I guess I just dont know what I look like to other people. Maybe I should be happy that I now can tell people why instead of just shrugging and giggling like a ninny. I mean I cant focus on what Doctors are telling me when Im trying to focus on staring at them and keeping my self still.
Anyway this is the first time Ive posted here in the haven, I thought it was the best place to have a rant. I just have a lot going on right now with my health problems and I have to move to another country with two of my kids and leaving my adult kids here. Lately I just dont want to leave the house at all, I feel like I really stand out. Not only from my typical AS symptoms but because of the back problems (my SI joint is fused) I now walk really funny.

Last edited by liloleme on 07 Jun 2010, 3:12 pm, edited 1 time in total.

I know the feeling... And I can't even say "I've got Aspergers".

Two reasons:
1. I'm not diagnosed, so I wouldn't say I've got it
2. I could never get myself to say it. (I still have a weird fear of saying "Autism" and "Aspergers" out loud, I don't know why...)

Unfortunately, you probably will have to explain, over and over, to many people who don't know/understand what AS is.



Like I said, telling people and explaining may be the only way that they'll "get it," even a little. Your specialists may have had to do one Psych rotation in med school, but it's doubtful that they remember anything about AS, if it came up at all.



Hope that what the doctors are doing finally helps. Good luck with the move.

This is definitely the "best place to have a rant." Feel free to do so whenever you need to.