Anger?

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How do you deal with severe depression, i see all these people around me who are happy and here i am and i have the choice to either cry all day because its so painful, or i can do what im doing now and not give a danm about things, think synical, glare all the time avoid happy things, and hate the world, its the only way i can cope with it. However i realized thats how my dad dealt with his PTS, i mean he just kept adding sheilds infront of him so he could no longer feel anything except anger and rage, he still shows happieness but most of the time hes short tempered and not very easy to talk to, but this topic is not about him, i just wanted to know if theres any other way to deal with depression.

I go to different places every day for shopping with my mom and what not and i dont know if i can handle another happy F**king song in the car, or "you belong with me - by Taylor Swift" or whatever it is, i simply get more angry and depressed when i hear S**T like that, i see people walking around all chipper and talking like nothing else goes on in the world but them selves, all the pretty bright color clothing, i hate it all. I havent said anything about this to my therapist or mom, because my luck ill be thrown in some mental institute, im not suicial and im not going to hurt anyone else, this stuff just makes me angry.

Sorry to offend anybody if you like the listed song above.

If you're not suicidal or intending to hurt anyone else, than I why not tell your therapist? That's what he or she is there for. Chances are he/she can already tell that you're feeling this way. I would make use of your therapy to get these feelings out and deal with them.

My therapist stop helping me a while ago, I don't know why but all of my question started to get one track awnsers of " oh I see" " you need to think differently" and the look of I really don't care

I've read quite a lot of your posts and I can relate to almost all of it. It's so painful to have to keep these feelings locked away inside yourself all the time.

I've had dysthymia and bouts of clinical depression since I was 15, though the depression was at its worst between ages 15 and 20, and then again starting about 3 years ago.

If it's worth anything, please don't be afraid to send me a PM if you want to talk.

I know that anger all, too well. I was an angry and bitter punk, who was hell bent, against society and everything that reminded me of society, including a few things that I'm enjoying, again. I was depressed and angry, because sexual assault and a member here, who dropped me 5 days after it happened, when I needed him, the most. That went on, from early 2007, until I've decided that I couldn't carry on, that way, last September. I've realized the nonsense of it all, and I've decided to drop the attitude, and just be myself. Who cares if I appear to be vulnerable? I'm more at peace, now. I hope that you can make peace with yourself, and your troubles in the future, as well.

I can relate. When I'm really depressed and angry I do NOT want to hear anything like that.

I don't know if any of this will help, but here's what I usually do when I feel that way:

-Find music that reflects how you feel. It's cathartic, and during these times seems more genuine.

-Read. A LOT. I went through entire sections of the library. Fantasy, sci-fi and mystery/horror helped the most because they provide escapes from reality. I also went through a period of criminology/true crime stuff, right before I decided to apply to grad school. If you think this would help and like any of these genres, I'll give you a list of favorite authors.

-Any favorite movies? Rent them and watch them, even if you've seen them a thousand times or more already. Hell, rent entire seasons of your favorite TV show(s), if any.

-Write--vent/rant here, in a journal, whatever. Even if you write the same stuff over and over, get it all out, however many times you need to.

Yes, these are just bandages/distractions. I'm not going to claim they're anything more than that. However, sometimes that's all you can do--find a way to distract yourself.

Hope some of this helps, at least a little. If you want to talk, PM me. I always write back as soon as I possibly can. If it takes a while, it means I'm working, but I WILL get back to you.

Take care.