a little burned out on the forum& weeing self off ADD me

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Hallow...
I have not been round here much..Have been continuing to struggle with functioning..and part of it has been not spending so much time on AS forum..I have made some progress here and there...broke through communication barrier with employee who I previously could not talk to, and have gotten used to her perpetual cheerfulness....found out she is an ADDer on stratera since childhood..I have gotten really sick of feeling weird and dizzy and still unable to function from my adderall, so I have attempted to replace it with a big pitcher of iced yerba mate tea...this is my second med-free day...and I was doing ok...except now I am on WP wasting time...and I yelled at an employee for asking me questions that I could not answer...I feel bad...I hate yelling at people.... and I am contemplating going and taking my meds..because I am frozen up and distracted...and unable to work (which is just as likely to happen on the meds.. )

ugh..I have been a tad burned out on WP...I have been skeptical again of my "AS" status...Just because I managed to get through some mental social barriers....which is generally they way things go for me..I make one little nudge of temporary progress...of have a day or a few hours where I "feel ok" and then start doubting the whole AS thing....(possibly due to literal thinking)...dunnow...I have a feeling that I need to hit the adderall and put on my noise cancelling headphones and get to work...

AS or not, you're still welcome to post here as often as you like Poopylungstuffing.

Any way you can try a different variety of meds?

I don't doubt that I am someplace on the spectrum, as i have too many traits and too many family members with traits not to be..I just question whether it is Asperger's...I def. have issues and I am a lot different and rather "lower functioning" than a lot of the ADDers I have known....but under the right circumstances, I can be quite silly and socially gregarious..though my ability to be socially functional/reciprocal is limited in comparison to the way it seems with most of the people around me.

My perpetually cheerful and capable employee is on Straterra...
I am afraid to talk about it with my doctor for fear of complicating things.
I have often shied away from the notion of non-stimulant meds because I don't understand how they work...but I am disillusioned with the ability of adderall to help me function.
I wonder if perhaps Ritalin would be better...
dunnow...
I am always looking towards stimulants for help..because I can feel so mentally and physically overwhelmed/sluggish...and also I am so damn scattered...I tell my doc that the adderall only helps a bit and that everything is still a mess...and he just ups my dosage..this last time he upped my dosage, I did not fill the xr script because it was too expensive...and have been trying to get by on 1 30 mg addy a day....

I like my doc, but have trouble bringing stuff up to him...I wonder how big a deal it would be for me to request to switch from adderall to ritalin to see if it does me better...and I also wonder about what side effects I would have were I to switch from the stimulant med to the non stimulant med...as in withdrawals from the stim med.
One of the reasons that I like my doc was that he was so willing to take my ADD-related issues seriously. Most docs have either been cold and skeptical, or insistant on focusing more on my anxiety and potential depression...because Adult ADD is regarded as controversial.

I always bring up the fact that a lot of my anxiety seems to be related to my sensory issues...but I am afraid to bring up AS with my doc. I was informally assessed as having Aspergers, by an AS specialist, and another psych acknowledged the likelihood of PDD-NOS...but neither count as a diagnosis...at this point I am leery about opening that can of worms after having seen him for a few months..strictly about the ADD symptoms.

I also worry about weight gain that might occur were I to ditch the adderall..I am now only 10 lbs overweight instead of 30 lbs overweight...pleasant side effect I suppose...but years ago when I went on and then off adderall before, I experience significant weight gain, which I do not look forward to....

I am just not very articulate when talking to him, and he always seems in such a hurry....