I have absolutely had it.
I really am not feeling good about life right now.
I despise my current area where I live, and I bloody well need to be back with my ex girlfriend.
I hate how people leave and I think it disrespects loyalty and honour, two values I take dearly to heart.
I need a girlfriend partly to save me from myself at times.
I am bloody brilliant - I am an amazing person and my good human traits are obvious.
I am so worn down and tired from no social life and no world around that seems to give a damn about my unfortunate situation.
Staying optimistic seems to be harder than sinking into depression, which ironically is much harder than being positive.
I try, oh how I try, to not let my emotions overwhelm me.
I think it is unfair that I am in this situation of constantly thinking about my ex girlfriend - it's been almost 4 months since the relationship ended and I STILL love her.
There are not many people in the world who seem to give a damn and my trust issues with the music industry will probably land me into a spot of bother from time to time when I'm trying to get awesomely great at music at some point.
Half the time my emotions are leaking and problematic, and I feel scared to talk on here about what I'm feeling because ocd governs my mind.
I NEED my ex girlfriend back. I cannot be happy with this volatile, temperamental state of mine which I will always feel some of anyway.
My qualities of loyalty, virtue, honour, integrity, intelligence... I hope they don't get hurt too often in life.
Curse life for cursing me with bad luck.
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Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle,
and the life of the candle will not be shortened.
Happiness never decreases by being shared.
04 Aug 2010, 10:29 pm
