I have final stage skin cancer

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hell I don;t know when I am supposed to go. I mean why is my body letting me go beyond the 1 year mark? I was supposed to die in 1year. I abuse myself and live 3. I see it, its hiding in the lymphocytes. What the hell is the cancer doing? I will bet its hiding and is going to do some seaky ship.

I don;t get bugs, but I feal sick. I will have to fix this ship.

I seem to have decline in cognitive function. Its only grammar and spelling on here.

You say some things that I question..

Geez. I dunno what to say, mainly because I've only been on the board a couple of days.

My advice, Florescent, fight the bastard as best you can. Make sure you tell that cancer that it may think it's immortal, but it ain't.

I dunno how I'd react with skin cancer, or hell, any cancer. You don't live in Australia, do you? Australia probably has more risk of skin cancer than other countries...

You chatroom mods can go kiss my ass, well Remillard. I tell you I have cancer, and I try and help you have compassion for me and what do I get? s t f u that is right shut the funk up. Heartless bast... I am not saying being about to die gives me the right to do anything I want, but it should give me alot more compassion. What if I die tommorow Remillard then what? Your last word to me were shut the funk up. You act like my sister who tells me she hopes I die and commit suicide and who tried to kill my mom. That right you stupid binch you better get meds.

Sc don;t try and walk on broken bridge. I could give examples. You know who else I hate, my mom. You rotten binch. You make fun of me and delay my diagnois. Good I am glad your funk'n sad. That what you get. I am working on it now and will help all other problems I might have. I just put this up so people like hale bopp and emp would stop bsing me. And especially Remillard. Who does he think I am trying to manipulate I wonder, SHUT THE FUNK UP. anyone who read this don;t mix words with me or you will regret it. If I die tommorow you can never type out an appology. I wrote letters to that funk, and I hope he gets it through his head. Just because I have cancer does not mean I can mix word either and I am trying not to. I try and do that guy a favor and I hope he takes it. Stop Tell me to Shut The FUNk UP. Cause I might permanelty

No body can hurt my pride, but if your last word are shut the funk up you are going to regret those as your last words to me. I am not saying I am going to hurt someone but you might not like leaving it like that. I am not going to care if you funk with me but you will. If I funk with anyone here I am going to regret that too.

Hokay, we have issues.

Well, good luck, wherever you go to. And if you can, drop us a postcard. I'm agnostic, so I'd like to know.

Hey, how old are you Florescent?

And why did your mum delay the diagnosis?

People, people, please beware of manipulative statements. Note carefully this statement:

That statement is actually true. Basically what it means is that he just put this up for manipulative purposes. As he virtually says in the above, he just put this up ("this" being the claim of having cancer) as an attempt to manipulate people into disliking anyone who criticizes him (specifically hale_bopp, myself, and Remillard).

Following is another very manipulative statement:



That is an attempt to manipulate people into feeling guilty.

I do not know what Remillard said to Florescent, but judging by the following, it seems that Remillard told Florescent to stop being manipulative. If so, I fully agree with Remillard.



I severely doubt that he has cancer. People who genuinely have cancer do not write about it in the way that he is doing. But even if he does, that does not give him the right to be manipulative.

All I can say is you expect WAY too much of people, Florescent. You are trying to force some chat mod on the other side of the world to feel sorry for you? It won't happen.

And by the way, I called you an idiot once, you troll me about 5 times a day. What you're doing is actually worse.

If I was you I would be out doing things I like, getting the good stuff in life rather than aruing with people on the internet with ridiculous arguments.

Who do you think I am? This is why I am considering leaving. Mistaken actions. You don;t get it do you? I am not surprised, most aspies don;t. I do have skin cancer. I just want no more stress please. I don;t want anyone to hate you emp or hale bopp. You should read my post again, Remillard mistaken my behavior. I tried so hard to explain myself for his benifit. So what does he do?, shut the funk up. I stopped harrasssing you so stop saying that Hale bopp. I have changed my nickname everythime your in to amuse, you that is it. Honestly Hale bopp, I see you have problems, and I am willing to have a certain degree of compassion. I am just saying you are wearing me down, you two and Remillard. I have no intention of manipulating anyone. How could I, if my dx is HFA. Yes my mom did make fun of me, my grandmother suggested we go. Emp you want to hear all my lies. I can tell you about my scars and operation, and all the needles or radioactive isotopes. What a cancer diagnoisis does do, is guarnteed me more compassion, for when I need it. I am not trying to use it for anything bad. I should have gotten it with Remillard, especially since I tried to help that guy. I have truama issues from getting maid fun of. They were just being mean, they had no reason to bother me. I also have issue with diagnois of cancer. I still see the injection of dies and all the truamatic stuff when under extreme stress. I just wanted to say you 3 are really pushing me and that is real hard. What do I have to do get on your good sides?

If it's well and truly terminal, I hope your remaining time is comfortable and enjoyable.

I am a good person k? Why, just like Carla, I have more fun this way. All I want is for Remillard to listen to me. I thought I was trying to help by explaining my actions. He is loosing his patients. I deserve more compassion cause of cancer, please don;t agravate me. I am trying to introduce to my tactic of having compassion for the other person. I have been provoked to attack some who wanted to fight me. I have the hard ware I could have inflicted serious harm. I understand in these instances you must remember that these people have issues and you should have consideration. I believer these are not normal reactions. My anger then turns to compassion. This is what I am doing with Remillard. Honestly I want to be cool with that guy. Emp tell me how I am going to be cool with that guy by engaging in such behavior? Do you think I am going to have more fun or less fun by engaging in that type of behavior? Why would I want to troll? What function does it serve? I did before I admit, but I toned it down. I have resentment issue, due to truama I experienced. I get nervous and hyperactive, I crack jokes, and I appologize alot. I appologize alot cause I am struggling with the resentment issue, not cause I don;t mean it. Ounce I realized that it became easy to tone it down.

Well now then, if you think my behavior is manipulative, good. That says you don't uderstand my behavior. Automatically, like Hale Bopp its something negative cause you just can not deal with it. Its too complex for your mind to handle, and that means I am smart. I know you will misunderstand this also. You will take it literally, cause you have a problem with abstract thought. This is why you guyes feal so threatened by my behavior. It is safer for you to assume its something negative because my words are too abstract. This is the third time I have been accused of not belonging here, cause I act too much like an nt. Guess what? I have a dx of HFA. Is your head spinning yet? I have also being accused of bullying. Come on seriously, you people make me laugh. Just ask and you shall recieve. Ask me to be more concrete so you won;t have to waste your time worrying about my actions., I encourage both emp and hale bopp to pm me. Maybe I can try to explain my actions in concrete termonlogy just so we can be cool.

This is your complementary analysis, so you can't screw it up. I want us to be cool. I get more fun from helping people rather than hurting people. I am over the resentment issue, cause I understand how it hides and hurts me. I explain my action so you have more compassion. I WANT TO HELP. Get it? I understand Hale bopp and Emp have issues so I have as much compassion for them as I can. Same goes for everyone here. I want to say this again, this time to QuirkyCarla, who is mad at me. Carla I forgive you, same reason. I care about you, you are a great friend. You are too much of a prize to let go. I won;t let anything make me let you go. No comments please. She is ideally suited for my trauma issue, which is driving me crazy. She is a do it right kind of gal, so I have no reason not to mistrust her. I have other people do this in the past to me.