Ok, so I am in my last year of schooling and starting to get really stressed out. So after the stress got to breaking point I just locked myself in my room to try and listen to music to calm myself down to prevent a meltdown. Know my mum knows that this is how I calm myself down (I have actually told her) but she started trying to barge in my room and everything and started yelling. So after that I just got up and left and stayed with one of my few friends over night to try and get away (I had my phone... texted her saying this and everything) and then when I got home the next day she started yelling at me again eventually saying if you don't want to stay here just leave then and just kept telling me to leave. So again I locked myself in my room this time more securely and just stayed there for the night. I was so stressed at that time I had a long knife from my cooking set and just kept telling myself 'Why can't you do it p****'. It has been 2 weeks since this and my mum is still being a f***ng b***h and being so stuck up about it. She says to me "I was never like you and I have Asperger's as well". Where she is obviously in no way autistic whatsoever. She is also saying "I was responsible at your age I passed all my grades and therefore was allowed more freedom"... and look how her freedom turned out... (I am the result of a teen pregnancy...)
f**k I can't wait to get out of this house.
Edit: I also have done everything she has asked... I got a job... all my subjects are currently on a pass status (In year 12... doing the hardest lot of subjects)... I am not on the computer all the time... I am helping look after my brother & sister (Stepdad is working elsewhere 90% of the time)... and she still f*****g says I do jack s**t.
04 Nov 2010, 2:38 am
