I wish some good things would happen to me, for a change.

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Everything couldnt be worse right now. I dont want to go into details but things are really bad. Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve this. There is so much suffering out there in the world too, and some people are really blind to it.

Why? why cant I, and those I love, have a good life (along with those I dont even know).

I don't know, but I'm sorry. ((hug))

I know exactly how you feel -- I really hope that it gets MUCH, MUCH better. When I feel like this, sometimes I read comedian quotes online, and I laugh enough that I feel a little better.

Quotes can be good. If you are a zen mistress, perhaps this one will help:
"A flower falls even though we love it, and a weed grows even though we do not love it."

I hope things look up for you and yours soon.

Thanks (((((((Aimless, schleppenheimer, Kaybee))))))) for your good wishes. I dont know either. All I can really do right now is get through every day.

Hey, I really like your photos. "Twins at play" is a wonderful shot. Where you live is beautiful and it's refreshing for me to see, living in a city. Try to just stand there and empty your mind and experience it. Have you ever read The Power of Now?

Thanks Aimless, I really enjoyed taking those photos. yes i have read a bit about buddhism but that wont help me. I have never been a particularly happy person but I have always managed to keep my head just above water. Now I feel like I am drowning. My mother is telling me I will be alright and that time heals everything but it wont and i dontknow how I will ever heal.

I have dealt with depression my entire life. Mostly a flatline kind of dysthymia but with periodic dips into major depressive episodes. I spent most of that time unmedicated. Medication made me feel so much better than I was feeling that it seemed like a miracle, but still I have never in my life felt completely capable. I saw my meds management person today (a psychiatric nurse practitioner) and she sees me as still depressed. She's having me try something that's similar to Abilify but without the weight gain. She gave me some samples that I will try. We'll see.

I hope it goes well with your new meds. My problem however isnt to do with depression. Some bad stuff is happening to me and I cant do anything about it. I am in a very bad situation and I dont know what to do. I am only OK when I am asleep these days, because then I get a break from things. Sometimes I wish I could always be asleep.