My ex boyfriend and I are really good friends now, but he was the truly the best boyfriend ever, and one of the most compassionate and genuine people I have ever met. We shared so much and had so much fun together. We still do as friends, but it's just so hard as I still have feelings for him. We broke up as he needed to figure himself out and he decided that he didn't want a girlfriend or to see anyone in that way...and hes kept to his word as he hasnt been with anyone else. Plus, he only sees me as a good friend. It made things worse for me though, because now that I have experienced a fufilling relationship, I would give anything to be in one again. If it was up to me, I'd still be with him, but of course, it isn't.
We are talking online right now about how I hate how everything has changed. He gets me so well and separates my personhood from my anxieties. He has NVLD, and as such can relate to me so much. He's being very sweet and supportive as always, but at the same time, I know that it will be hard to find someone else that I love that much...and who gets me as much as he does.
I need a hug.
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Given a “tentative” diagnosis as a child as I needed services at school for what was later correctly discovered to be a major anxiety disorder.
This misdiagnosis caused me significant stress, which lessened upon finding out the truth about myself from my current and past long-term therapists - that I am an anxious and highly sensitive person but do not have an autism spectrum disorder.
My diagnoses - social anxiety disorder and obsessive-compulsive disorder.
I’m no longer involved with the ASD world.
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