I wish I was diffrent for the sake of my family

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First off, I'm sorry I make a lot of post here. I'm not trying to get attention.

Anyway, I feel as if my family wants a NT daughter and to just get rid of me. Even though they say they love me, I just can't live up and sastify them. I've tried acting NT, never works. I'm just a miserable waste of life it seems. Who knows, they may not want this perfect NT daughter. Most likley at least in my opinion they do.

I used to weight 180 pounds but I gained a s**t load of weight and my mom told me, "oh I'll help you out" but does the exercise material happen, never. I almost feel like I don't have a family at all.

I'm not my my dads blood related child and I'm not like my mom at all. And who are my biological dad's side people. A bunch of fat, ugly, Italian american jackasses. I don't want to be that! Or a part of it.

The part about "for the sake of my family" in your thread title caught my eye while thinking about my grandchildren, and I would like to be encouraging for you ... but I do not know what to say that might be helpful. However, I can say you are not "a miserable waste of life". Nobody is. However, many of us do still need to discover ways to not live in misery.

I was the first in my third-grade class (at age 9) to reach 100 lbs., and I have always felt uncomfortable with my weight until something about my body chemistry or whatever seems to have recently changed and trimmed me down a bit. I know very little about nutrition and how to eat properly so the body can burn stored energy, but maybe you can begin looking into that and seeing how that might be helpful for you. However, one of the finest women I have ever met is quite heavy, so that does not have to be a deciding factor for you.

Post away, and never worry about posting too much.


Are they actually showing displeasure, or is that just something you sense? Either way, almost anyone should be willing and able to accept your honest effort at being a respectful and considerate member of your family.


So, now you know one more thing to *not* do, eh?!


That is fine, so just look for the simpler places to begin learning how to deal with your daily challenges right where you are, and others of us here will do our best to be helpful and encouraging wherever we can.

"Papa Joe"

F**k them. They should learn to be proud of their Asperger girl, not the idealized daughter they think they deserve to have. Don't put yourself down.

Let me tell you a little bit of my story here, just to show you're not alone on this:

I am nothing like my family, and disappoint them in a lot of ways. My mother frequently likes to remind me that I should have stayed home and went to the business school nearby, rather than doing what I did for college. Now I work in a warehouse with high school dropouts, for the 4th time in the last few years. I'm also very liberal/libertarian/anti-theist, which goes against the grain of everyone else in this family (conservative/authoritarian/Christian). All their interests vastly differ from mine.

My brother seems to get more preferential treatment, and gets to do a lot more with a lot less scrutiny. Because I'm the oddball child, the one with Asperger's - I get far more problems.

But - you still should live your life unapologetic. After all, you're living for yourself and NOT them. Yes life would be easier if you was NT, but you can't change that fact. So - don't let your family sink you so much.


A friend of mine is Italian, the typical stereotype of Italian Americans. He's the only male in his family that doesn't have a felony arrest of some sort. He has very little contact with them now, and has a life of his own - definitely not the same ol' "stuck in East'aven" personality.