I only have a mother and a little sister. I used to have a father as well, but cancer took him four years ago. My mother's job as a high school teacher is so ridiculously demanding that she stays at school well into the evening to do after-hours work that she doesn't even get paid extra for. When she eventually comes home, she focuses all of her attention on my sister and EVEN MORE school work. My sister is going through a sassy phase, and I don't particularly enjoy her company. I'd get comfort from my one friend IF she was ever available, but she very rarely is because she has her own problems.
I'm extremely lonely. I tried to get a job and wasn't successful. I think that the obvious next step for me is to go to college, but I'm not even sure how to go about it. The process of signing up for one, planning a method of pay, and choosing classes is overwhelming for me. I have never had to do something like this for myself, but it looks like I'm going to have to. The financial part is the scariest because I don't have my own income. Then there's the fact that I don't even know what I want to be. I have no idea what classes I should take. I'm afraid that college will be like high school, which I dropped out of because I couldn't handle it (I got a GED instead). Obviously I can't just sit here and waste away, but I don't have anyone to look to for support. I don't have anyone to depend on. It's like I don't have a family, and I'm just living in someone else's house. I'm so afraid that I'll do something wrong, and this fear is keeping me from actually taking any action. I'm stuck.
05 Nov 2010, 10:10 pm
